[Dmom3005]

Personally glad you can figure these things out.

Donna

[OhKay]

I forgot to mention something very important: Yesterday I was officially 1 year sober

I felt better yesterday as far as what has been feeling like high anxiety, but I decided to switch back to taking that 50mg at night, which meant skipping one 50mg dose, and am not doing well this morning. So, I guess I'm going to have to go back to taking it in the am and just suck it up until my body adjusts to it. I took the 50mg this morning so it will be "extra" rather than missing a dose again. I see a nap sometime in the very near future.

The last time I had to adjust to taking 100mg of seroquel during the day, I was not driving and was pretty much home bound. At least I know I will do better today than Tuesday because I have only taken 1/2mg of klonopin today vs. 1.5mg the other day because of the anxiety attack.

At this point I know I'm having an episode.. I should have picked up on it weeks ago because I've never had all of my anxiety disorders flare up to that degree all at once in the absence of an episode. I guess it's something to learn from. I was just so focused on handling it on my own.

Instead of making an appointment, I called my pdoc this morning and left a message. I know what she's going to tell me, but it's still important to call to let her know what's going on, and I should get her input before I treat myself because there's the possibility she will recommend something different than she has in the past.

I planned on doing laundry this morning, but I'll be too sleepy to finish it. I have one errand to run, but it can wait until the afternoon.
I'll call the bank's customer service department after breakfast, then go back to bed.

[bizi]

WOW!!!!!
Congratulations, can't believe it has been a year already.
You are amazing!!!!!

hope your pdoc comes up with a plan that will help you.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Congratulations Kay.

Such a milestone.

Donna

[OhKay]

Thank you
I can't believe it's been a year already either.

I got a call back from the secretary at my pdoc's office telling me she won't be in until Monday, but the covering NP said I need to be evaluated. So I could go to the ER or accept the next available appointment with my pdoc on Wednesday. lol. Those are two vastly different options aren't they? My pdoc is in the office on Monday, and I'm sure she will call me.

I have no intention of letting things get to the point where a trip to the ER or psych ward becomes necessary. There's no point in seeing a different NP right now because my med plan is complicated and I'd just be telling her what my pdoc would recommend. If this situation hasn't improved by tomorrow, I will raise my dose of gabapentin, which is what she would tell me to do.


Yesterday I called to see when we'd be reimbursed for the money that was stolen. I went down a few rabbit holes trying to get the right person on the phone, but in the end was told we would get our money back sometime between today and Tuesday. I hope that's true.


I finally went to the BR but had to use everything in the arsenal to do it because oral laxatives alone weren't working. Unfortunately the show's not over because I didn't get great results. Hopefully the oral meds will be enough now though.

Ordinarily I'd be putting laundry in right now, but I know that I'm going to need to go back to sleep once I take that seroquel. I hope that I'll be able to get my wash done when I get up. For once I don't have any errands to run.

[bizi]

You do so well managing your moods kay. I am happy that your pdoc is so helpful and willing to work with you.....
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[OhKay]

My pdoc's wonderful. She's just wasn't in the office.

I felt better yesterday and am feeling better so far this morning, but there's still room for improvement. I'm trying my best to pay attention to my mood and behavior. I am holding off on adding the gabapentin for now.

Yesterday my little nap turned into a 4 hour marathon nap despite setting 4 alarms on my cell. I got nothing done.
I was up at 5am this morning, but didn't take my meds until my usual time at 7:30. I should have just taken them at 5, because now I'll probably be going back to sleep when my husband is just waking up. Hopefully my nap today is short, or at least shorter.

[bizi]

does you MS make you fatigued like that or is it the meds?
bizi

[Mari]

Kay,

I missed posting on your thread the day you posted about your anniversary.

You have done very well. . . . so well that you could get a prize for
your sobriety

Congrats too on getting your license back.





M

[OhKay]

Thank you Mari

MS is the #1 reason for my fatigue, but meds and other factors like heat can make it worse. Some days are better than others, but the fatigue is always there. It's a matter of whether or not I can function despite it or not.
I usually wake up between 6-7am, but there are days I have to go back to bed a few hours later regardless of meds, and I almost always have to have a nap at some point during the day. My naps were running longer before the seroquel increase.
The extra 50mg that I just added to my am meds is sedating me, and I have to go back to bed shortly after taking it… no choice. I'm still waiting for the first day when I can just push through it and stay awake.

My husband got absolutely ****faced Wednesday night. He was obnoxious and annoying. I've been so irritable/agitated, and his behavior is driving me up a wall, so I explained a little bit about what was going on with me on Thursday, but that didn't stop him from getting trashed and testing my patience again. He has absolutely no consideration for me, or anything I might be going through. He drank heavily on Friday, but paced himself so he wasn't such a handful, but was back to pounding the beers and being obnoxious again last night. It was a blessing when he passed out at 7:30.

We got "HIS money" back yesterday. It's "HIS money" because he works for it, and I don't work. Of course I can't work, but that doesn't matter. I feel badly because I would like to contribute, but can't because I'm handicapped. I have told him that comments like that make me feel like a beggar and a piece of ****, but he doesn't care. I get a social security check, but it's a small amount of money that I was mainly using for medical expenses and cab fare, but have been using more of it for household expenses now that I'm seeing doctors less and am driving again. He says, "THAT is YOUR money." That's the last thing he said to me before he went to the bathroom, and then disappeared into the bedroom to pass out last night.

I don't want to start a fight because I never know how far he's going to take it, and I can't deal with his temper right now, but he's getting on my last ****ing nerve. He's a total ***hole.