[bizi]

Hibachi grills are fun! and usually the food is good albeit salty.

What would you like for your birthday meal?
I will " make" it for you.
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[OhKay]

I usually order pizza.

So, I decided I'm going to make an admission…

My mind **** has failed me and I'm still having issues with heightened anxiety. My intrusive thoughts are particularly concerning. I'm taking more klonopin. It's been a long time since I've taken this much klonopin. It's not effective for the OCD symptoms, which is no surprise to me, but at least it's helpful for the GAD.

I see my pdoc Wednesday, but I almost took an extra 50mg of seroquel last night because of the intrusive thoughts. That is probably what she is going to recommend, but I decided to hold off because I'm not in danger, just disturbed, and it's not a mood issue. No, I'm not suicidal.

That 50mg will put me at the max dose of 800mg of seroquel and I don't like the idea of that, but oh well. I hope that taking it at night is effective and I don't have to risk any further am sedation. Sometimes seroquel doesn't carry over well into the am for certain symptoms, which is exactly why I have to take some in the am now.

If I can't have it totally my way, I'll settle for it just working, period. I don't want to have to add another med. I do see the eventuality of that though because these symptoms continue to break through.

[OhKay]

I haven't had any intrusive thoughts since I starting taking the extra 50mg of seroquel at night, and my OCD and PTSD have calmed down

I'm surprised it didn't have a larger effect on my GAD though… maybe because I'm taking it at night? I'm still using a lot of klonopin, but am not taking more than the 3mg I'm allowed. I hope since I'm not dealing with the other ****, my general anxiety level will start to go down in time…

[OhKay]

I usually wake up with some degree of anxiety and can't go back to sleep, but I woke up somewhere between 5 and 5:30am this morning with a full blown anxiety attack. It's not the first time it's happened, but it just hasn't happened in a while. It's a great way to start the day

Taking the extra seroquel at night has been helping with my other anxiety disorders, but I think I'm going to have to try taking it during the day instead. Maybe spreading the dose out more over 24 hours is the only way it's going to help control my GAD, which it should be doing… easily. If that doesn't work, I'll have to go see my pdoc again and figure out some sort of plan B.


I suffer from "intractable constipation," which is a major motility disorder that doesn't respond well to diet or typical therapies. It's common in MS and meds make matters worse. There are a lot of things that used to work, but don't anymore. I go to the BR once a week, twice if I'm lucky.
I take:
15mg of Sennakot at night
1250mg of Fibercon twice a day
100mg of colace twice a day
30mg of lactulose at night
15mg of Dulcolax as needed
I know it's an aggressive bowel regiment. I make changes occasionally. It's something I work on with my PCP, neuro, and gastro.


I'm have plans to go to the club some time this week on a day when my anxiety isn't too high. I kinda made a promise to myself I'd go every week, but I guess I didn't follow through because it's been about two weeks again.

[bizi]

I am so sorry for all of the meds you have to take for your GI issues.
wow this must be frustrating!


sorry for all of your anxiety.....
(((((HUGS))))
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[Dmom3005]

Sure wish I could help. But don't know how. I take metmucil tablets when
mine gets bad.

Donna

[OhKay]

My husband received his new debit card in the mail Friday.

When I spoke to the customer service agent from our bank on Wednesday, she said they were sending us an affidavit. We have to sign and return it before we can be reimbursed for the money that was stolen from our account…

We're still waiting for it.

[Dmom3005]

If not received in a couple days remind them. It could be lost in the mail.

Which would be more frustrating.

Donna

[OhKay]

To change from taking 50mg am/750 pm of seroquel to 100mg am/700mg pm, I took the extra 50mg yesterday so I wouldn't be skipping a dose. I had already taken 1.5mg of klonopin for the anxiety attack, so it knocked me out and I slept for 4 hours.

Now I'm on schedule.

I woke up with anxiety as usual this morning. The 50mg of seroquel I took this morning was not effective in calming my anxiety by itself (which is surprising), so I took 1/2mg of klonopin. I am experiencing some sedation even though I still feel anxious.
I'm going to give it another day or two before I go running back to my pdoc's office, but I'm starting to wonder if this is really just anxiety. I have a habit of confusing mild hypomania and high anxiety, but I'm not picking up on any other hypo sx, and if it's mild hypomania the extra 50mg of seroquel should have taken care of that, too. I'm going to have to take stock of my recent behavior to see if anything pops.

We got the affidavit yesterday and my husband checked it, filled it out, and signed it. I was going to have one of the bank branches fax it to them, but there is no fax number on the letter, and that makes me nervous. I'm trying to decide if I should call customer service to ask for the right fax number or just send it overnight mail. I'll probably err on the side of caution and make a trip to the post office.

I have to do some food shopping today, but will only pick up a few things because we are hurting financially. I wish I could put it off until I get my SSDI check tomorrow, but there are some things we need now. What a PITA.

Unfortunately the post office and grocery store are going to have to wait because I need to sleep this off before I can drive anywhere…. if I can even drive at all today. My husband may have to drive me when he gets home from work whether he likes it or not.

[bizi]

Kay this is a lot of stress for you.
I am sorry.
I wish we did not have to be so hyper vigilant about our bipolar, but somebody does right?
((((((HUGS))))))
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