[bizi]

I am sorry you are having a bad couple of MS days.
(((((HUGS)))))
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[OhKay]

I'm doing laundry again :roll eyes:
I had a new set of sheets in the hamper that had never been washed, along with a set of dirty towels, and the sheets on the bed were due to be changed. Since I did laundry earlier in the week, I didn't have a lot of other laundry, so I decided to take the opportunity to get caught up…

That means that while I plan go to CVS and go buy cigarettes, I may fizzle out before I make it to the grocery store. After all, I still have to make the bed, and that's an Olympic event.

I hate shopping on weekends AND it's supposed to rain, so maybe I WILL make myself go if I can. IDK, but if I do have to wait until tomorrow, I won't be waiting to shower until after my husband gets out of bed. I got a very late start last Saturday and it didn't work out very well for me.

[OhKay]

I didn't go grocery shopping yesterday because I wasn't up to it and it ended up pouring out all day, which made for less than ideal conditions. I probably won't go today either because it's raining, but it looks like it won't be tomorrow. We have plenty of the things on hand that I usually end up having to run out and buy when I'm trying to avoid going to the grocery store: coffee, TP, and milk.

I've talked with my husband and done a little research online and I've decided that before I do a broad apartment search, I'm going to approach the management here to see if they can find us another apartment in our price range at a different property (they have many) that will be easier for me to access. Their other properties have much higher tenant satisfaction ratings online. In over 7 years we've never been late with rent, and they already know that we smoke and have 3 cats… Since we already have a long-standing relationship with the company, it would just be easier to work with them, and the search and move would be a lot easier. I just don't know when I would go in to talk to them, soon I think. Hopefully they still want to work with me even though I have been, um, vocal about maintenance issues.

[bizi]

I think that is an excellent idea kay!
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[Dmom3005]

Kay
Your maintanence request have been thingings that need changed.

So they should be willing to work with you.

Donna

[OhKay]

I think asking them early is a good idea because that way they can be on the look out for a vacant apartment that suits my needs. Maybe that will mean we move earlier though. So I guess I should start getting around to doing some of the "move out" cleaning tasks on my list just in case. I worry that I won't have the energy to do the extra work and I'll drive myself into the ground trying to do it and/or the cleaning will be activating and I'll end up hypo/manic…

My list is divided up by room. I need to separate it further by "need to do" vs. "want to/should do." A lot of the things that need to be done really aren't that taxing (although some are), but if they are left to be done until the day we move out, altogether they will bury me.

I'm getting anxious about the move in general even though it's the beginning of May and our lease isn't up until the end of July. There is a sense of uncertainty, which I don't enjoy, and I know no matter what the move will mean a lot of work on my part.

[bizi]

I think it is smart of you to make a list of the things that you need to do vs. want to do. Any way you could hire someone to come in and do this for you.
I worry that you will over extend yourself and have an even further relapse. You health is worth the cost of a cleaning company.
(((((HUGS))))))
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[OhKay]

My husband would never consent to hiring somebody to come in here and clean. He won't want to spend the money. He knows it will take me time, but he thinks I'm capable of doing it…
I think I am capable of doing it if given enough time. I wouldn't be very happy if management here wanted us to move sooner tho because it would give me less time to get things done. A little euphoric hypo/mania would be welcome if it wasn't so dangerous for me.
Vacuuming is very taxing. I can do it every other week instead of weekly so I can get a couple of things on my list done instead.

I skipped my nap yesterday because my husband needed my help with something. Staying up was brutal and I turned in early, but I woke up at 6am, so I'm very tired. I still hope to get an early start today so I can get some things done. I never got around to cleaning my kitchen floor last week, so I'm going to do that, and maybe a couple of other things on my list in the kitchen.

I'm considering going to the office today to talk to someone about moving. IDK. I am anxious about it. I think I will take a look at the entrances to the buildings of the complex I have my eye on again before I do that. The property is around the corner, so I could do that today, and still visit the office. Because I am anxious I will need enough Klonopin in me for the conversation. My social anxiety can be very bad in situations like that and is apparent to other people.

I went grocery shopping yesterday. I will avoid doing that on Sundays from now on because that's obviously when the amateurs come out. It was very frustrating to try and make my way through the store, and it took me almost twice as long to do my shopping yesterday.
It's over with for now… but I have to go back because I forgot bread, hot dog rolls, and the chips my husband asked me to buy. I'm not happy about that.

[bizi]

I find if I go late in the day on sunday that it is a breeze.
Good luck looking at apartments/entry ways, and talking to the staff.
Have a good day and I hope you get a nap in today.
(((((HUGS)))))
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[Mari]

Do you make a grocery list, Kay?

I always do, even if I end it writing it out or into my phone while I am
still in the parking lot before I go into the store.

Otherwise, once I am in the store, I buy things I see and forget to buy the
two or three important things I needed.

I am not perfect about it, but I really really hate not having things in the
house that I felt that I had meant to buy.
We usually can manage without if I already put it into my head to buy something, I want to buy it --
-- lots of things like that play into my depression /anxiety I suppose
that do not necessarily affect everyone else.


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