[OhKay]

My agreement with my pdoc is that I will report any new symptoms ASAP. I've been doing pretty well, but I still have my share of issues. My treatment goals remain 1) keep me alive and 2) keep my out of the hospital. The differences here are I just won't be able to reach her for a while, and I'm dealing with depression vs. hypo/mania this time. I don't think she'll be upset with my decision to at least try reducing the gabapentin because I think my symptoms are severe enough to warrant a med change like this, and I think that this is what she would do.

How quickly this has developed has scared me. I only added that 25mg of seroquel back in about a week ago and this started a couple of days later. My hypo/mania has been much more difficult to manage in recent years and I don't want to find out how hard it will be to manage a major depressive episode once the ball really gets rolling. This is bad enough. Yesterday I was really sensitive, overanxious, and emotional again. I only took a 2 hour nap yesterday and didn't oversleep last night though. That's an improvement…

Maybe reducing the gabapentin is starting to help already. I just don't want to go too far the other way. There is no way to get to 350mg because the the smaller doses come in capsules that can't be split, and the tablets only come in 600 and 800mgs. So it's either 300 or 400mg.

If the reducing the gabapentin turns out to be too much, I'll resume my 400mg dose and won't attempt any more changes because anything else is above my head.


It does help to have the written record Mari. It has helped in the past, and it does help me to have input from all of you. Sometimes you notice something in my writings that may be a sign something's going on that I may be missing.



We have constant problems with the water being shut off for hours at a time, and problems with having no hot water at times when we need it. In MA, the law regards hot water… the landlord must provide notice that we won't be receiving it except in cases of emergencies. There is no way that every time the water is shut off, it is an emergency. They are in violation of the health code unless they can prove that in every instance they are making emergency repairs. I'm going to start keeping a record.
I've called the leasing office in the past, and it's like talking to a brick wall. They have all of our email addresses and phone numbers, so they have no excuse. Our old apartment complex always provided us notice, even in the case of emergencies.
I think I will call again now that I've looked up the law.


Hopefully once my checks start getting deposited into the joint account, my husband will stress out less about money. As it is, he can't see that we have the extra "X" amount of money in that account, so he worries more.

I did laundry and changed the sheets yesterday. I made a really pitiful attempt to turn the mattress that almost led to Dottie getting crushed by the mattress. She wouldn't get out, I was about to drop it, and I had to pull her tail to get her out (something I would never do otherwise). I got nowhere with my attempt…. don't know what I was thinking.

I have to go to two banks today, and the weather will be mild for once. It will be about 85 and partly cloudy, so I may take advantage of the fair weather and get a couple of other errands out of the way before it hits the 90s again tomorrow.