thanks so much. the rent deposit was such a relief and the surgeon said i would feel a numbness and a slight burning and a lot would be going on during the hour or hour or hour and a half

My mother had brain tumors removed twice and had to be awake. They were long surgeries, but she didn't remember much afterwards though. I hope that's the case with you :hug::hug::hug:

your poor mother. just called up the cardiologist to see if i had an electrocardiogram. I have had so many tests and the surgery requires one, He said I did have one two months ago, I am in a strange place. I wish i could have gone for a walk with cecilia.I am not that stressed consciously about the surgery but i am waiting for the flood gates to burst. I just took a bath. My anxiety is very high. It is back. I hope nothing triggers me. I realized something so if all goes well i might say something when i came back.
bobby

I'm glad that you are experiencing some denial. It can be very useful. I hope that it carries you along as long as you need it :hug::hug::hug:

I'm so sorry that your anxiety is very high. I hope you are treating it with your klonopin, and that is helping a little :hug::hug::hug:

Thinking of you today :hug::hug::hug:

Wanting to wish you well with your appointment with the cardiologist today.
And your stent tomorrow.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thanks so much. my cardiologist is tomorrow and the surgery is thursday. a my anxiety is back. I so feel like crying. Now I am worried about money too.
then i am worried about weight. I wonder what the air conditioner bill is going to be. I ave been running it non stop except for last night. I have been manic but i think that has stopped. I told myself i would not go to the senior center but now i might go. my typing has gotten worse again.I might have to take more money out again to make me feel more secure. If I pass this huddle of surgery next one is scrie senior rent freeze otherwise my rent goes up three hundred plus a month. I will have the social worker help me again.
the procedure will last between one to one and one and half hours conscious. then I if all goes right i will lie on my back from 2 to 5 hours.
bobby

I wish you could cry bobby, I know that would make you feel better...
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I'm glad that you're going to get some help from the social worker. Since she has helped you in the past, that should alleviate some worry there.
If taking more money out will make you feel more secure, then you should do it. You have so many worries already :hug::hug::hug:

Even though you'll be awake for the procedure, you may be sleepy, so the time will probably go by fast. I have a feeling you will sleep for a lot of the time following the surgery :hug::hug::hug:

i hope so. maybe the dentist uf he us free and able ca remove them if necessary

Was the appointment with the cardiologist today, and the surgery tomorrow?
Or is this all happening next week?

If you saw the cardiologist, I hope everything went well and he eased some of your anxiety.

If your surgery is tomorrow, I hate the thought that you may think that you are not in my thoughts.

I hope all goes well :hug::hug::hug:
All my love,

Kay