I read that there is a terrible flooding in Louisiana…
I hope that you, Jeff, and your home are safe

I hope that your situation is such that you were able to leave and enjoy your beach trip

Bizi,

Did you go out of town?

I am concerned about the driving conditions. Be careful.


M

I'm hoping you return home safely also.

Donna

It was raining when we left friday and we drove out of the rain.
There was 20 inches of rain over 2 days friday and saturday.
Many places flooded that don't normally flood.
many areas of the state were really hit hard.
Our back yard was a bit flooded not bad though and none of it reached our house. We had a friend look after the cats and things so that was reassuring.
When we drove home today it redirected us(thank goodness for gps!) I-12 and I-10 were closed down so we had to go on roads that we never had been before.
Jeff was having chest pain so we switched and I drove.....
He was having classic heart attack symptoms....That all just went away after about 5 hours. Who knows what that was all about????

Pensicola was a lot of fun.
We ate great food.
I was careful and did not get sick.
Went to a local open market set up on phalafax street. bought some cards and some foaming soap for the dispenser! perfect for my business.
We walked on the beach at night sat and watched the tide come in.
It was a beautiful night.
Walked a ways down the street to the big pier where you can fish if you want to. we just bought a walking pass.
It is a long pier.
It was so much fun on the pier this year!
WE saw many people bringing in big fish!!!!
saw huge schools of fish that would attract bigger fish then sharks and finally porpoise. we even saw a manta ray!
We feed little fish off of little pier at the motel, fed them bagels that we took from breakfast. Fed seagulls too. 50 swarming seagulls is fun to experience!
WE spent about an hour in the sun and got sunburned, did not realize it until I got home tonight and looked in the mirror.
WE had a great trip!
The detour put us an hour behind getting home.

bizi

Bizi,

Sounds like a great place!

I hope that Jeff is O.K.

M

Not to dismiss your feelings, or the significance of any of the issues involved, I think you are more focused on these things right now because you are going through a mixed episode, and you've become overwhelmed.

I just want you to feel better, and I hope that happens soon

Bizi, I think a lot of things about you but "lazy", "childish" and "immature" are all about minus infinity as far as I am concerned.

What I do think about you is that you are a strong and courageous person.

have you tried taking risperdal? I think you need some medication to control yourself. Have you also ever considered volunteer work?,You don;t sound happy in what you are doing. I think you have to get out of yourself. How about an animal shelter? I should talk. Physically i am in no shape to do anything.
love
bobby
somehow I don't think being self critical does anything but digs you deeper in a hole.
more love
bobby

thank you ladies,
I am just down.
Risperal is another antipsychotic right?
maybe my bipolar is getting worse?
meds can putter out but maybe I have not been honest with myself...maybe I have been like this for years just sqweeking by.
Not paying attention...being careless.
Maybe I do need a medication change.
I am afraid of the weight gain by adding another antipsychotic on board.
I already gained 23 pounds since november 1st last year.
But if I had a better medication mix then maybe I would be better able to diet and exercise. Maybe my motivation/concentration would be better????
Sigh
bizi

WE went to lunch and had gumbo and I finally told Jeff that I was unhappy in general. That maybe it was time for a medication change. He doesn't think I should change pdocs as she knows me best whether I like her or not. Over all, I think she has managed me. I am the one who doesn't call her and do things(change meds) on my own. I told her I was manic after the fact this last episode, the trazadone mistake.
Anyway, not sure what else to do. I don't think therapy will help me.

We went to the halloween store and I bought a new costume(I had been a dead bride for 12 years!) I will be the mad hatter! black and white striped pants, checkered vest, teal green jacket, orangish top hat with orange hair.

I have pork chops to cook for dinner
WE are going to art walk this evening, and maybe a play tomorrow afternoon. Then dinner, friends birthday are gathering at a local restaurant.
Bizi