Hi David,

I think everyone has given some great input. Mari hit the nail on the head, with the stress and anxiety you are going through. I feel for you.

Is there anyway you can take some personal and/or sick time to get your stress level down and your anxiety under control? Maybe this would be something to discuss with your Doctor.

You need time for medication a adjustment and time to decompress all that stress, find an outlet, like Mari said whether it be a form of exercise or just something you like to do.

I do believe in SAD, when I lived back Northeast, I had it really bad in the winter months, actually once they changed the clocks back and it got dark early. Now I live in the Southwest and I don't have that problem anymore.
Rain also bothered me A LOT. Here, we hardly get any, well that's the desert for you.

Don't ever be sorry to rant. We are all here for you.;)

Good Luck with the Dr. keep posting........let us know how it goes.

Hugs, Nikko:hug:

{{{{David}}}}}

You've had a lot of stresses going on so I thought you could use a hug. I usually give out a hug when I don't know what to say. Sometimes for me though if I can concentrate that brighter days will come and that it will not always be caotic sp? I can deal better.

befuddled2

Dear David,
Bizi here posting uder my mothers user name...
Perhaps a short term leave of absence...any way to talk to your boss about this until your meds are more stable?
This sounds so stressful.
I wish it were easier for you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi David,
I just wanted to check back with you.
I know your feeling of enjoying the reward to work, your job. I was in law enforcement, PA.'s first female municiple police Chirf. I worked years to be hired, had to fight discrimination, then excelled until an underage driver hit me and robbed me of my career.

I had to retrain, or rather I had a terrible time reinventing myself. Two years and great chronic pain psych that supported me, I finished my BA in Criminal Justice and sociology. I wanted to teach part time at local Jr college...hitting the discrimination and political powers to be there again.
But, I do work part time, I am a visitation caseworker. I monitor visits between parents and estranged children, or those that are deemed by the court unable to see their children unsupervised for many reasons.

I am now considering and looking into a program to be certified as a child advocate. I feel if I am going to be in this field I at least want to use my education and experience to help the kids caught in all this mess.

I am so restricted in my program as we are non-theraputic. But, with advocasy, I can really help....

So I thought maybe not wanting to leave your job, that maybe there is a stepping stone to take to another position using your skills, maybe even in a new and improved way.

I morned my job for eyars, I could not accept I lost it all....Now at 52 I accept it is getting to rough out there for an older fart like me. I am better off helping my kids, and maybe yet someday to teach....or perhaps advocate for the courts for these kids.

Just thinking of you and saying a prayer for reduced stress and peace in your life.
Di