I am sorry that you are going through this.


M

last night i went out and bought a big cupcaake with a lot of frosting. I weight almost two pounds more. It was weird but the korean woman who owns the store and who is never friendly kept on telling me how wonderful I looked. she is never friendly. she is beautiful. at lunch jack told me that he is losing sleep over me and how well i looked
I decided i am going to keep spending and just hope I don;t see anything i want. I saw anothe r crocodile bag but didn't bid on it. I saw a couple of pair of pants but they were over 10 dollars. I have a rule now that they can;;t be over 10 dollars. this wont be solving the problem but at least it is something. I got my money back on another bag and got to keep the bag. It was misrepresented.
I am drinking coffee right now even though i am supposed to fast before the doctors. I just cut mats off of pudge. I was scared i would cut her. off to look at the pants sigh
bobby
thank you
saw two but over 10 dollars

I am glad that you put a limit on your spending. This shows some restraint. which is a start.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I agree with Bizi... the spending limit is good. Even in that ballpark is good because if you break your rule, hopefully you're not spending too much more.

I love that you are getting lots of compliments lately, and even have a man losing sleep over you!!!

I hope you enjoyed the cupcake

i didn't buy two pairs soldtogether , the price was great but i refrained and was happy i showed restraont. i chaanged two passwords aafter finding out i culd use the shift key for capitals, i still ordered a wireless keyboard

i just bought a pair of bruno magli flats. i tried to have ceclia buy them. does suede stretch?

It's possible the suede will stretch. If they're good quality (and I'm sure they are), they probably will.

Good job showing restraint and not buying those pants.

thank you. looks like no buying of pants today. I did look. I am getting sick of them. spent some time in bed with abby. she attacked pudge before. poor pudge. I am severely depressed. the lowering of the antidepressants is really uncovering the depression. I go to pt today. then i hope i can read and escape.
I guess I should talk to God about this depression. I have been actively praying to him for Suri and telling Suri to have trust in him. It is not working for me.

yes reading can be a good distraction.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Maybe you are coming down since you are less interested in the pants now, and you are getting discouraged by your perceived lack of connection to God (I think just trying is a good thing)
I think time will tell if this is a temporary dip in your mood or if you have truly switched back to a depressive state. You may want to wait a couple of days and contact your pdoc about a med adjustment again

My cats fight from time to time. Unfortunately the boys usually pick on Dottie, but they fight with one another, too. They don't get vicious or anything tho. I think it's normal for the occasional run in to happen when you have a household with more than one cat. Plus, Abby is young, and may have been attempting to play.