Your brother's job sounds really interesting. I'm glad that after a hard life, some good things are going his way :hug:

I took my pills around 9:00 p.m. Then I slept until 2:00 or 3:00 a.m.


Usually I take the pills and stay up -- push through the sleepiness and stay up until dawn -- and then sleep.


Now I hope to go back to sleep.

I'm glad that you got some sleep Mari, and I hope you did get some more :hug:

I too hope that you got some extra sleep.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi:hug:

My sleep plan last night did not work.

I awoke too early from noise.


Then I stayed on the couch anyway for a long while . . . feeling that
if I relaxed / stayed rested I would be ready to get up 90 mins later.


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Bad idea.
Now I am depressed AND anxious. --- I do not not usually have
that kind of anxiety in the morning but today I do.

Plus I am probl late for work. So I really did not have those 90 mins.


M

I am sorry mari, not sleeping is awful then waking up to anxiety is worse.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I slept 10 mins when my meds first kicked in around 10:00 pm or so and then I was awake all night. . . . I found some typing and other things I wanted to
deal with instead of sleeping.

Then I took a tiny bit of Lunesta about an hour or two ago and I am awake again.

I do not let the sleep aids work.


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Appts/meetings today:

1) pdoc at 2:30 this afternoon -- not in the mood to go anywhere. prefer to sleep or try more lunesta. I would cancel but if I wait a week I will be busier maybe and I
am not sure what meds I need from her

2) meeting at work at 7:00 p.m. tonight. It is kind of important but I am not up to it.



M

It was hard.

I was a little bitchy. . . .And so very many things I had to deal with.

Then I came home and crashed.

It makes sense to me that your anxiety would be higher, and that you felt depressed because you (probably) had zero energy from getting zero sleep the night before :hug::hug::hug:

7pm seems to me to be an odd time for a work meeting. Did you end you going?

I wish you didn't have to fight so hard with this… I hope that more sleep is in the cards for you soon, Mari :hug::hug::hug:

I canceled the pdoc appt.
'Left the message that I am too depressed and asked for an appt a week from now.

The 7:00 meeting is tonight. I think I can make it.

M
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Update


After the two hour meeting and driving home after 9:00 pm I realized that I was so
very depressed.
The depression was scary.

Now I am awake for no reason except that I prefer to be awake rather than sleep.
And I do not want to take any more Lunesta.
There is a chance that it is making the depression worse.



M