I can't seem to shake what I have. I feel so empty. I am having more sugar than I have had in years. I probably miss having coffee but it was really bothering me. My neurologist said something to the effect that I wasn't going to get better because of my age. I heard the rabbi discuss one of the psalms yesterday over the phone. for a while it was uplifting. he is very scholarly.
I am too tired to do research by myself. I am too tired. last week I fell out of bed and hit my head on the phone. I really feel i am declining. I had a physical a few months ago.
I can't walk much. My depression is also bipolar.

I'm so sorry that you are having those feelings, Bobby

It can be very hard to bounce back from strokes
You are dealing with new limitations I wish you did not have, and will have to slow down a little. When you're constantly battling fatigue very day will be different… some days better than others

Was the coffee bothering your stomach?

Sometimes when we are depressed medical issues can get worse. I've experienced that myself. Can you see you pdoc to have your meds adjusted to help with your depression to help with the feelings of loneliness and emptiness you are suffering with?

Can Robert move your nightstand, or whatever your phone is on, so you don't hit your head on it, or your phone, if God forbid you fall out of bed again?

Thinking of you today…

it is as if i am battling two depressions bipolar and the effects of the stroke besides aging. the phone was on a canister on the floor where I keep some of the cat food in.I forgot how i fell out of bed this time. My head really hurt. I think the coffee did hurt my stomach after all these years. also I was itchy all over the place. I think my stomach is okay now. I am a little itchy now. Last time I told my doctor I was depressed and could he raise the antidepressants and he only raised one by 1/2. I am a bit manic which he doesn't know. I just bought thirty dollars worth of food for mickey, robert's dog.hamburg and chicken. I bought five more books by gayle buck and a few other things besides a great deal on darjeeling tea. I hope it is fresh. I got it at walmart's online.
I am buying more things online at walmart's.
love
bobby who can't seem to adapt
he doesn't know it but I am taking another half of the other antidepressant=I have enough

Bobby

I think you buy things for people because they help you. And in the case
of Robert's dog, you love him and want him to have these things.
I see no problem with once in a while doing this.

And hitting your head always hurts. Sometimes more than others.

donna

if you are a bit manic right now
is it wise to take extra antidepressant on your own?
bizi

i am just so depressed

what am i supposed to do. I usually buy things that aren't frivolous.. I hardly go out to eat. I will just buy a lot at once if it is a good price or on sale.

thanks. I needed that. Today I am going to try to read. I am also going to buy an automatic laser my friend robert told me about for my kitty cats. that should be fun watching/ I feel as if i am coming down with a cold.I got caught in the rain visiting a friend in a rehab center. finally the motor vehichles cashed my check for license renewal. I am dreadfully depressed.

I'm sorry you're so depressed, Bobby

Buying a lot of things doesn't always mean you're manic, especially if it's the only symptom that might indicate mania. Your mood is very low, so I doubt it's "manic" behavior, but your depression is complex, so it's behavior that you should probably run by your pdoc the next time you see him

I hope the new laser toy works out. It sounds like it will be fun for the cats, and fun for you to watch them play with