[OhKay]

Even though Corey was home yesterday, I still had to clean the snow off my car myself. He didn't even offer to help me. Of course doing it aggravated my neck and shoulder problems, so I wasn't up to pushing the vacuum or broom around, and I didn't do the floors.

So this morning I still have those chores hanging over my head, among others, and my anxiety is higher than it has been in quite a while...

I tried to make that to-do list yesterday, but all I managed to do was make a list of things I need to buy (I need to hit at least 2 stores this week). Every time I try to sit down and nail down what day I'm going to do what, I squirm and head for the door to smoke another cigarette (I had been smoking a lot less). The biggest conundrum is when to do laundry because it takes so long, and I worry about how it will impact my PT session or vice versa.

I set my alarm for 7 this morning so I would have time to get whatever I'm going to do done... it seems like I'll be using that time figuring out what that will be.

[bizi]

Good luck with all that you have to do.
take care of yourself.
sorry for the increase in anxiety.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Mari]

Kay,

I understand the planning I think.

It's not about the list making, right?
It's about what you can do/ have to do/ want to do. Something like that?


M

[OhKay]

That's right, Mari...
1) 3 appointments this week (nephrologist, PT, pdoc)
2) Christmas shopping that has to be done so it can be mailed/shipped
3) Christmas cards
4) Grocery shopping
5) Laundry
6) At least half-a**ed cleaning

I have to find a way to rest and get naps in there, too lol.

I cleaned the bathroom yesterday (but not the floor or shower), and after an hour of indecision in CVS, I bought all the cards I needed. I decided I'll do some cleaning before my appointment today, and will do the laundry on Thursday. That's as far as I've gotten so far. I'll have to try to hash out the rest tonight.

My appointment with the nephrologist is at 2pm today. I don't have much faith in him, and will probably ask my PCP to refer me to someone else for a second opinion no matter what he says. With all of the tests he ordered, he never tested my eGFR (measure of kidney function) (?), which hasn't been drawn in quite a while, and was quite low when it was... I will have to look up when it was last drawn before I go.
I'm nervous about the appointment...

My anxiety is quite high today. But I'll be driving. and have an appointment that is late in the day for me, so I can't take more than 1mg of Klonopin.

[bizi]

I am sorry for your anxiety, hopefully you will find your last results of the test.
I can't believe he did not order that for you!!!!!!!
Great that you got the cards, that is hard picking them out.
(((((HUGS)))))
sending warm thoughts your way.
good luck today.
bizi

[OhKay]

The nephrologist is a jackass. He said he wanted to "check in" with me in a YEAR!!!
I said NO.
I told him I wanted him to repeat the ultrasound and check my GFR, and he agreed. I have the ultrasound Friday morning...
More to do this week

[Mari]

Wow.
It would be nice to have a doc paying better attention.
Good that you spoke up about what you want.


M

[bizi]

I am glad that you are having the ultra sound this friday to get it over with., am hoping that you will get results early next week.
I do not like him!
bizi

[OhKay]

This doctor is a moron. Some of the things he has said to me are such bulls*** it's literally unbelievable. I am using him to get the tests I need run. I don't plan to continue seeing him.

If this ultrasound is negative, and what the radiologist saw on the last one is gone, I can put this issue to bed (fingers and toes crossed).
I'll probably get a look at the radiologist's report before I hear from the doctor... maybe Monday? IDK.


I planned on doing laundry today, but f*** that!!!
I've been run ragged all week and tomorrow is going to be a LONG day. I need to rest. The laundry can wait until Monday.
ALL I'm going to do today is get my coffee and play the lottery like I do every Thursday.

I managed to get my Christmas cards out yesterday, and have chipped away at my shopping list. I still have to get to the Yankee Candle outlet, and buy a couple more gift cards, and I'll be done.

I'm worried about money... I've spent an absolutely RIDICULOUS amount on copays in the last couple of weeks. So, I have to work out what I will buy when based on our cash flow.

Tomorrow I have a pdoc appointment at 8:30am, the ultrasound is at 10, and then I have to go grocery shopping. So, I won't be online.

[Mari]

Very Sorry about the Moronic doctor.

Good work getting lots of shopping accomplished Kay.

Have a good day, Friday.