[OhKay]

I'm 37... really don't think I'm having hot flashes, Bizi. I have a complicated medical history. I won't rule it out 100%, but that's not where I would look first. My sister, who is a year older than me, hasn't experienced hot flashes, and I can't remember my mother, who passed away at 46, ever having them, and that's something she would talk about. She thought it was important to pass information like that on to us.

It was miserable out yesterday. It was borderline freezing, started out snowing, then poured all day, and we got over 2 inches of rain. I didn't go out. Today is supposed to get up to 54 degrees, but it will be cloudy and windy. It's a welcome improvement tho.

Since I never went out, I didn't know what to tell to my neuro about my gait, so I didn't end up contacting him. I know I should have contacted him sooner... I will take a walk to the mailbox later this morning and write the note. I have a Tysabri (MS med) infusion tomorrow and he needs to know what's going on before I have it. I hope I'm walking better today.

Last night I fell asleep on the couch again even though I hadn't smoked any MJ... that's 2 nights in a row. I had pretty long naps both days. I'm just so damn tired all the time.

I am almost out of face cream. I buy it on Amazon because it saves me about $20. I finally realized I could just pay for 1-day shipping to save me from 1) going to the mall and 2) paying *full price*
I've spent a ton of money on Amazon lately... all on things we need, but I'm still concerned about my spending. Just because I'm buying things we need doesn't mean I'm not binging. When I want to buy s***, I can always find a justification.

I'm binging on chocolate, too. A ton of it. I'm still holding steady at 144-145lbs. I'm eating a bunch of other CRAP, too. I have no idea why I'm not gaining any weight back. I think if I stopped I would probably lose more weight.

During the week, I usually only have to make Corey dinner because he leaves too early for me to make him breakfast, and he doesn't like to take a packed lunch to work. Since he's been on second shift, I've had to make him breakfast and lunch before he goes, and either have to make him something when he gets home, or have something prepared for him. I hate it. It's a lot of work between the cooking and the dishes...
And I don't know what to make for him aside from garbage food. I have to go out today to buy a couple more things already, even though I went grocery shopping Saturday. Hopefully I can think of other things to buy so I'm not stuck going to the store three times this week.