I self-medicated with alcohol to deal with a lot of my trauma.
I don't experience the same kind of depression as you because you are BPII, where depression is the dominant feature, and I am BPI, where hypo/mania is the dominant feature. I do experience periods of clinical depression, but they are rare. I don't know why someone becomes one vs. the other, but my father is BPI like me.

That was a long time to be undiagnosed.
I am really glad that you quit smoking bobby. Your lungs thank you for it.
I am sure that was hard to do.
Good for you!
When you know people in your life who are really financially stable, millionaires, you would hope that they take care of some of their family members.
Like if I were to win the power ball then I would give each of my family member a million and friends and charity. etc.
Hugs to you today.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I sort of feel sorry for my two nephews who are not billionaires. I think the article was written at the beginning of the year and he was short 50 million.
I didd ask myra once for money and she asked me how much I had which wasn;t much and she gave me 300 dollars and said that was all she could spare. at that time she had been divorced from an opthamologist(sp) and got a great settlement.then she married a trust fund baby.

It must have taken a lot for you to ask, and I'm sure she knew that... and then for her to be so stingy... what a little pay off, and it must have been hurtful :hug:

Instead of cutting back on cigarettes and using the e-cigarette, I'm smoking MORE. I have to do something because we're moving soon, and I won't be able to smoke in the apartment :o
Good for you for quitting Bobby. It's SOOOO hard!

How is Abby doing?

you will cut down when things settle down. who knows maybe you will even quit since it will be a pain to go outside to smoke. Yes it was humiliating asking myra for money and telling how much i had and then having that response.
why did i get her as a sister?
love
bobby
abby is doing very well-still not as friendly though

I'm so sorry for this.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

She will come around :hug:

Because the cats are going to get their shots tomorrow, I cut Buddy and Dottie's nails last night. I have to do Rocky's today, and I'm absolutely dreading it… he's awful! He will run away and hide from me after.

He is so big. I don't see how you can do it.

I sit on my couch with my knees up on it and hold the cats up to my chest like they're babies. I don't do their back claws anymore. None of us have the patience for that.

Rocky fought me very hard... he's SO strong. It only took me two attempts to get his nails done this time, but is was not easy. I've been using Greenies to reward him, and I think he's FINALLY catching on that if he plays ball, he will be rewarded. He didn't hide from me this time either :)

that is so great that he is responsive to treats. I bet you are glad it is over!