slept well=had a nice dream=still not depressed even though angry at nephews

I'm so happy that your super is probably (?) coming back. I know how much you like him, and how disappointed you were when you heard he was leaving. It is hard to find supers that residents are so pleased with, so the board would be wise to meet his conditions so he will stay.

I hope you had a nice celebratory coffee with Cecilia. I'm happy you got out for a bit

Robert obviously doesn't understand bipolar disorder, and may think all bipolar disorder is like bipolar I where when people are "up" they are truly MANIC and sx are obvious. People with BPII ARE mainly depressed, but they can become hypomanic, which isn't as severe as true mania and sometimes people who aren't around all the time/don't know you REALLY well, don't pick up on the signs. You recently had a pretty long significant episode of hypomania. And I think sometimes you have short bursts of hypomania, which isn't too uncommon with BPII...
From what you have said in the past, it seems to me like Robert is a black and white-type thinker, and probably wouldn't understand that. I hope doesn't bother you too much that he doesn't

What is up with your nephews now? I'm sorry that they continue to be a source of pain for you

I'm glad that you are still not feeling depressed and are still having, and remembering, those nice dreams

robert doesn't believe in bipolar and think practically all people are depressed and just hide it. it is frustrating. I called that morning when i woke up high to tell him i was happy and not depressed and slightly manic and giggled.
I didn't get the responses I had hoped for from my nephews when i wrote them that I was visited by a Rabbi. One said that was nice and did I go to services for the holidays. I wrote back and said you know I don't go to services for the holidays. then I wrote two more emails to him. one said how daddy and I played tennis on Yom Kippur because you had to be a good person all the year.
I wrote another saying it was only once but he did good things like low rents to the tenants in his apartment house for fear of causing hardship or when he was a judge he received commendation from the president for having people who were found guilty buy war bonds instead of paying fines. My other nephew described the visit as something fluffy and i wrote back and said we talked about problems.

Bobby,

That worked out well.

When my t.v. does not turn on or something is off, I freak out.
I have no idea why, but it feels like a big deal.

I am happy to hear that your cbl button did the thing.


M

I know you are not comfortable going to temple alone because you didn't grow up going, but if one of your nephews offered, would you go to services with them on the holidays if they invited you?

It sounds like Robert will never understand BP. I'm very sorry about that because he is such a close friend
Some people are like that tho. Even people who believe in it don't understand it, and can be very hurtful (to put it mildly).

Are you still just drinking one cup of coffee? How is your stomach feeling?

they wouldn't offer and i wouldn't go. I did go to temple and was confirmed.I am drinking a lot of coffee again though not as much. Yesterday I ate four hard boiled eggs for lunch/ that killed some of the appetite. tonite I will eat meat. I haven;t had meat in so long.

Bobby,

So what is going on with the nephews? They were not supportive

about the Rabbi visit?


Sorry about Robert -- he does not appear to be a good listener.



M

right-i was so angry

It would have been nice to share with them.


I hope you are o.k.


M

I am so sorry that they don't appreciate you Bobby
They're little $hits.

I love you (((HUGS)))
And I hope you are still not feeling depressed