I am still angry but not depressed

thank you so much
love
bobby

It seems like you are strong and in a good place right now Bobby :)

That makes me very happy!!! :)

Have you heard anything about the home PT?
When do you see your PCP?

Have you heard anything about the therapist?

Not yet. The holidays just finished so maybe the social was busy. I see the primary care doctor tomorrow to have my a1c taken. when I want to cheat I have nuts. Now I am eating eggs which are satisfying

my mood is slipping a little. I hope it doesn't slip further

Hold on, Bobby.

I hope that you can be O.K.:)


M

Thanks so much. I am really trying. the other day I spent about a half an hour talking with suri. her last scan wasn't good. I talked a lot about God and she said I really helped through the services.

I send prayers for Suri. It is good that you talk to her. I think that
you are good with each other.

M

You have had a good run. I wish it would have lasted longer, and I hope that your mood doesn't decline any more :hug::hug::hug:

I'm so glad that you got to talk to Suri, and you were able to help her.
I will say some good words for her :hug:

thank you. she has a home that has separate sections and can contain two separate tenants. One is mentally off and such a stressor to her.she can't take it anymore. His father won't answer the phone when she calls. She feels new guilt over being a good Jew. I found a couple of articles from Jewish literature saying you had to take care of yourself.I sent them to her and she said hey helped. I am afraid the stress is so bad for her. Her pep talk really helped me.
I really went on about faith rather than confidence in God.
I am still on the run. I tried to watch the patriots game but fell asleep immediately and woke up at 5:30. The previous night I didn't sleep. I was worried about everything. Cecilia clipped Pudges's nails. I was too scared to look at then and see if they grew in. I wrote her 3:30 in the morning to ask her. My hands aren't steady. I really feel handicapped..somebody said my handwriting was cute because it was so small., my attempt at control. Yesterday because of lack of sleep and stress my walking was horrendus and I almost fell a few times because of balance.
I joined prime to get the blood monitor fast. I really freaked out when my old one say 180 or 190. I was so lucky at the clinic yesterday when a doctor saw me.a nurse wasn't allowed to see me. she calmed me down so much and got my blood pressure down to 110. Then another nurse saw how much trouble I was getting around and so did the doctor.The nurse said she was going to see if I could get cheap rides to the clinic,Coming back two days ago I think I spend 22 dollars.