like frozen in my emotions. i think i feel hopeless with bipolar symptoms like over eating wanting sweets and spending to spend. maybe part of it is anxiety.
Now that I want to control things I feel overwhelmed. not sleeping much doesn't help even with the sleeping pills

I am sorry you did not sleep much, that contributes
to your feelings I believe.
I can't remember if you are still drinking coffee or not???
Do you have any kind of routine about going to bed?
bizi

no routine. I am up about 2:30 and then i start drinking coffee. I don't think coffee is the culprit. I went for a month or two without coffee and still had sleep problems

I am sorry.
So many of us have sleep issues.
Wish it weren't so.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I am so tired. I am useless

I am sorry....
(((HUGS))))
bizi

I can't seem to break the cycle. I have been up for an hour. Last night I dreamt about being mentally ill.I think the coffee is making anxious and I will try to stop at two. ha ha.

I dreamed of forgetting my purse at a home and frantically returning to find it intact and nothing missing. Anxiety dream.
bizi

You are not useless, Bobby :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

I have control issues, too. That, and anxiety, can be part of why it's hard to let your emotions out.
I tend to talk about events like I'm telling a story.. detached from them, but then I will feel the emotions later, and struggle with them. But when I had a really good therapist, it wasn't like that. I was comfortable, and could tell her anything...
I hope the same happens for you :hug::hug::hug:

Getting on a regular sleep cycle and staying on it is really, really hard. It is very common for people with BP to have sleep issues :hug:

that must have been a huge relief!