[bizi]

I saw Robin my tdoc today. We had a good session. Though I told her that I wanted to put our sessions on hold. Thru the years of therapy, That I felt like I was talking and talking and not really getting anywhere.
She pointed out that I avoided a lot of things, house hold work the yard that stopping by pats was a habit....
She said sometimes people need a break...so that is what we are doing.
She left the door wide open...I really like her.
I gave her a hug good bye.
I felt deflated.
bizi

[Mari]

It's great that you like your therapist.

I hope that the break helps you.

M

[bizi]

Thanks Mari,
We had a really good session today. It was the first time that I ended therapy doing it the right way. In the past I have just canceled appointments with out explanation. No closure.
I guess when I am ready to dig deeper than I will call on her again.
bizi

[OhKay]

I'm glad that you did what you felt was right for you, Bizi. Therapy isn't for everyone all the time

You know that dual diagnosis is extremely common. I don't want you to always blame your addictions without entertaining the thought that sometimes you may be having an episode, too. The rise in addictive behaviors can signal an episode, but not always. I'm not suggesting you are hypo now

I'm sorry that you are chewing on your thumb again

You sound unhappy right now... sending you some (((((HUGS)))))

[bizi]

We have complimentary tickets to see the symphony tonight at 7pm.
They are performing in a big st. johns cathedral along with the BREVE, early music singers.
I am really looking forward to going.
Just got a text that my mother got her plant that I sent for mothers day.
I think she liked it. LOL
I had a break at lunch so shopped for some food for the weekend at sandras health food store where I eat lunch most days.
homemade veggie soup, tabouli, salmon marinated already (one pound is 4 meals total and put those in the freezer.), talapia which is frozen so put it in the fridge to thaw and will invite our friend over to eat dinner with us.....
food glorious food!
I think we are going to have organic, grass fed beef franks(hot dogs) for dinner tonight.
What to wear for the symphony??? I have gained so much weight. Any thing goes really.
So I should not worry about it. I have black jeans to wear or black leggings with a fancy blouse that I wore at new years. It has some silver little studs for bling.
Have a great weekend yall!
bizi

[Mari]

How was the symphony? I am sure that you enjoyed it.



M

[OhKay]

It sounds lovey... I hope you had a good time!

Do you have the whole weekend off?

[bizi]

The symphony was good except I kept falling asleep.
sigh
I was embarrassed because later I realized that friends of ours were directly behind us.
sigh
I slept very late today. I have been sleeping more lately.
Got out of bed at 1040am, went to bed at midnight last night.
Only had one night sweat that went away quickly thank goodness.
I am not going thru menopause gracefully.
today I get my hair colored and maybe cut. 3 months ago I had a botched cut somewhere other than aveda school where I normally go. I need for them to fix the problem.
Getting another hot flash....sigh
my hands sweat while working and makes it difficult to work with my tools, I keep having to wipe my hands off, and wiping my face off as the sweat will run into my eyes....
sigh
have a good saturday yall.
bizi
Hubby wants to go to a music trivia brewery with friends out of town today. There will be much drinking involved. I want to go to art walk instead. If I could find someone to go with me....I need more friends.

[OhKay]

I'm sorry you are dealing with symptoms of menopause Bizi. It must be very uncomfortable, and the work part must be very frustrating

Do you think you may be sleeping more because you are depressed, or do you think you just need more sleep right now for another reason?

I hope that your hair grew out enough so the hairdresser was able to style it in a way you really love

And I hope you were able to find someone to go with you to the art walk, or you ended up having a good time at music trivia.

[bizi]

I ended up going to music trivia. The 2 other women there did not talk to me. I felt like an outsider. Which did not help my social anxiety issues.

Over all Had a ok time, ate way too much, 2 cups of a rice dish called jamblyia(sp?) with chicken and pork, and had a huge raspberry snow cone.
For every right answer you get a free beer. Their were 2 teams so we ended up each with 3 six packs of beer.

So they were all happy about that.
They are all musicians and this was music trivia.


Jeff is out of town for a couple of days. He is Vacationing with his guy pals at Galveston Texas. They rented a house near the beach. They plan on fishing and doing guy things and will be home late tuesday.

I have talapia and veggie soup and am trying to find a dinner date.
I don't like being alone as you know....
It is after noon and I have still not gotten ready for the day.
My hair cut and color turned out nice, though my grays came out lighter than the rest of the hair so it looks like a new high light which is good.
I put on some work clothes and plan to go out to lunch at the diner and will do some yard work this afternoon.
There is so much that needs to be done, it is overwhelming.
I have a friend coming over to clean the house monday afternoon, I need to get her some cleaning supplies and make a list of things that I want done....
Some time soon, I need to take the car into the shop to have the air conditioner trouble shooted. It is unreliable on long trips. It is just fine for my daily trips. But on 3 different long distance trips last year it gave out on us. Which was terrible.
Well I have had 3 cups of coffee and had better finish getting ready for the day.
bizi