[mymorgy]

being bipolar is so hard-i wonder if that is what you are really fighting..yesterday at 10:30 p.m. i finally ate something frozen blueberries.
today i just want to eat

[bizi]

Well actually Bobby, I think I am an alcoholic.
How could I not be when I struggle so hard to not binge but then I do.
5 or more drinks in one setting is considered a binge.


I worked a lot in the yard today. Raked leaves this morning then this afternoon dealt with the dead plants and gathered dry soil and mixed them watered them and added new potting soil to it in a big cooler. Used this dirt to pot the new plants(begonias, new guienne impatience, hostas, mexican heather,) I planted 8 planters full of flowers. I am tired! I purchased the plants and dirt from home depot 3 blocks from our house so that was convenient. Threw away several old/cracked pots and an old bird cage that had been up since we lived there, just never got around to throwing it away. The patio looks nice i would show you my pictures that I took but don't know how to load them on here from my phone.



The man, Ian is the painter who has finished the front door it is on horses on the patio so we are anxious for him to be done. We really like the door, it is lighter than we thought it was going to be but really like it stained this way. It really looks like wood though it is fiberglass.



I wonder why we have not gotten a bill for the foundation work. They made a mess of our yard dirt every where and sink holes, uneven ground dirt that needs to settle.
Again there is so much that needs to be done. I am proud of myself for doing what I did today. Jeff said he would help me water the plants.
I am good at starting things but the follow thru maintenance, not so good.



My feet are killing me need to get these shoes off.


I have sweated today and need to take a shower.
I already washed and dug the dirt out from under my nails.


Hoping to sleep well tonight.
bizi

[OhKay]

5 drinks in a night is a binge, but not if you are drinking that many consistently.

I applaud you for staying AF for... how many days so far?

I remember you gained a lot of weight on Abilify. I gained 50lbs on Seroquel. The weight you gain on meds is REALLY hard to get off. I didn't watch what I ate, or go on a diet for a long time, and that made it a lot harder to get the weight off.

You are really working your ***** off in the yard lately! I bet the patio does look very good! I'm so glad that you like the new door!

I hope you slept well... you should have slept like a rock after all that work you did.

[bizi]

slept hard last night and woke up dreaming about being tortured.
My sister was there also. weird!
175.8 yay.
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi
Small steps at one time. You can do this. You keep showing you
can.

Just keep it up.

Donna

[bizi]

today makes 9 days AF.
I am getting ready to go to the gym to walk on the tred mill.


Had a good dinner tonight from whole foods salad bar.
spinach salad with shrimp and some roasted brussel sprouts and parm cheese and ceasar dressing. Came home and knuked it for 3 minutes it was great! and it was a lot of food, also ate half an avocado which was very good.
Ate some dark chocolate and a tablespoon full of nerds again.
so good and satisfying.


Our yard man put down some grass seed on our back yard that needs grass. We are to water it daily one hour till we see grass coming up. I think I will water it in the morning before work. There looks some rain itomorrow, the rest of our yard needs rain.
bizi


edited to add:
Walked on the tred mill an hour for a 5K(3.1 miles) at 5% incline supposedly burned 455 calories, which I don't believe. Watched TV, cake wars which is entertaining. I like the cooking channel.
bizi

[bizi]

Made it to the gym. I belong to planet fitness and have the upgraded membership in order to use their hydro massage bed after using their equipment. Tonight I walked a 5K, 3.1 miles for 63 minutes at a 5% incline
and supposedly burned 455 calories. Which I don't believe. The hydro bed is invigorating, I like it! It is only 10 minutes but really feels great! Like a reward for "working out".


Light work day tomorrow again, as was today, only seeing 3 clients.
I did half of my billing today during a break and will do the other half tomorrow. When doing billing I listen to music on an old cassette player. I am listening to cat stevens lately. In my car when traveling to clients homes I listen to the news on NPR or blue grass music. Istarted listening about a year ago. Today I was listening to "Oh brother where art thou?"
sound track.It is great and one of my favorite movies.


Tonight marks day 9 Alcohol free.


bizi

[OhKay]

9 days AF is something to be really proud of Bizi
You are doing very well with your diet, and going to the gym...
You just decided to take better care of yourself, and you did just that. You should be proud of your self. I'm very proud of you
The needle on the scale will start moving soon.

It'a great that you were able to squeeze some billing in yesterday!

You are being really productive lately, which is wonderful, but just please keep an eye out for other symptoms of hypomania.

I like Cat Stevens, too. And the "Oh Brother Where Art Tho" soundtrack is a good one! I can play the music on my phone through my new stereo, and that's what I do now. I have everything on there from Otis Redding to Guns And Roses (for example).

I like Nerds, too

[mymorgy]

I love cat stevens

[bizi]

Yes thank you!
When I start seriously dieting then it is easier not drinking because of the extra calories. Going to the gym is also a no brainer.
Today I think I will have chicken salad and creamy of squash soup that hubby did not like. more for me!

(I had lost weight before that I was 168 on 3-22-18) my heaviest weight was 186.
This morning 177.

I have lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks since resuming my diet.
Slowly but surly I lose this weight. I can't quit trying.
I really don't want to disappoint Dr. Orazio.
When I don't drink, I am able to diet and lose weight.
sorry if I am repeating myself.....
bizi