[Mari]

Bizi,

Nice that you found support.


M

[PurpleFoot721]

It's wonderful that you are able to find a site like that and get some additional support.

[Mari]

Thinking of you, Bizi.

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

We are all here to help support you one day at a time.

I may not understand what you need in the drinking. But I can
understand what it takes to not drink. So if you need to talk
we are all here.

Just let us know you need us.

Donna

[bizi]

Thank you
I do need you guys.
my addictive personality is really kicking my butt.
So do I get to blame my bipolar for my addictive personality?

Is it all just part of being bipolar?
I struggle with this.
bizi

[Mari]

Yes, a large part of it is the bipolar.


M

[bizi]

I am better tonight.
I have taken my vitamins consistently for a few days.

Have been eating at my health food store for lunch at sandras.

Ate with bill and mike today. Had a leisurely lunch, it was nice to have small talk with people more my age and not just 80-90's. Don't get me wrong, I love my job but really hated eating alone for lunch. Bill and mike eat at the singles area there are 4 seats open for grab. I will sit at one of them when I am not eating with my lunch bunch. I have not had lunch with paula in weeks. something always comes up.
I wish I could be better friends with her but that is not happening sorry to say.
My weight is 180.7....jeff is fasting the next 2 days. I should fast with him...except I need to eat 350 calories to take my geodon/meds at noon.
I am going to shoot for 500 calories for the days.
I finally had an alcohol free day today. Decided that my tolerance was so high that I did not need all of those extra calories.

In the evening after dinner I went to the shoe station and bought 2 pairs of shoes on sale. Then went to planet fitness and walked on the tred mill for 34 minutes. Used the hydro bed for 10 minutes.
I feel more in control.
I feel better, not depressed.

Need to get up early in the morning to take a shower. I have been busy with work seeing 5 clients every day starting at 8;30am and working every saturday till I get caught up from our vacation.
Thank you for your support.
bizi
I am also not picking my hang nails they are healing quite nicely.

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

Your having a very busy day. I know how hard it is to eat
alone. I do that a lot when I'm out. I also hate to eat alone.

But its so hard not to do. I am taking Meluvja to her pain
doctor tomorrow, so set it up so we can have lunch together.
It might be that I end up paying for both of us too. But that
is okay, I have money to do it.

She lives with my son, and he pays for most of their things.
She doesn't get the money she is supposed to from her ex.
And hates to ask for money, I know how that goes.

Donna

[bizi]

up at 6;30am

took shower

I had 2 cups of coffee with stevia, 0 cals

12 oz of diet stevia sweetened cream soda 0 cals

3 cups of water
1 serving of maple oatmeal 160 cals

one diet chocolate shake 50 cals
so far: 220 calories for the day.


Saw 2 clients this morning, hopefully see 3 this afternoon.


dinner will be poached chicken 3 oz equals 120 calories
maybe pick up some spinach which is low calorie and wilt it.
I need a veggie. I missed eating at sandras, jeff is here so that was good. He did not eat anything for lunch.
He can always have a piece of cheese and some cottage cheese if he gets grouchy he said.


I am saving calories for 100 calorie bag of pop corn.
counting calories eating out would be so hard to do.
I can't imagine eating at sandras and trying to count calories.



bizi

[mymorgy]

have you ever thought of yoga to get rid of stress? which might increase urge to eat. I don't have discipline