I have been worrying and worrying about the building not cashing my check. I can see it deposited but i missed it.. well it got deposited about the second day and I worked myself up to a frenzy. I have been making all stupid mistakes since the stroke. It is so frustrating . I can't spell and I used to spell so well.
I am so frustrated grwwl

I am sorry you are frustrated.
It is a shame that you have to deal with these after maths following a stroke.
I think Mari had a mild stroke that effected her work some a few years ago. I believe she recovered in time, ask her about that.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I don't think hers was as bad but she is brighter than I am so she could compensate more.. I think my high level of anxiety is also interfering with my functioning. I don't have patience. I just made myself a cup of coffee.

I'm so sorry you have to deal with these types of things, Bobby

I have had a lot of cognitive losses from the MS. I know my anxiety and meds make it worse, too. I get impatient with myself. It is very frustrating and is still hard to accept.

Since you are concerned about the rent check, I would start checking to see if it's been withdrawn from the day you send it out to avoid the stress of missing that and getting so anxious

You will find ways to work around other problems, and deficits. I hope, as Bizi mentioned, that some cognitive symptoms will improve- at least a little

I hope some good things come your way soon. You deserve it my friend (((HUGS)))

the check is okay, it was cashed the second day I sent it in. Chase has an alert to show the activity each day. I missed that day since it was so early. I called the management and they reassured me that all was fine with my account.MY anxiety was skyrocketing and I decided to look at my account online. I didn't do the account number right. More anxiety, finally I got a human. He told me which was the account number. then I reset the password and saw the deposited check. all that anxiety for nothing.
I wonder if carrying all this anxiety is robbing me of interfering of energy and i
sleep and getting me more tired of recovering from the stroke. It is over the top. tomorrow i go to the GP I am already worried about my diabetes and oversleeping.

It was small in the summer and I was able to work in the fall. Even then, I had to fake things for a semester or two.

My focus has not been strong -- so sometimes I blame that on sleep and meds when it might be the stroke.

I basically have no interest in anything beyond surviving. (Depression?)

For example, I rarely read.
For listening to music, I listen to one song a few times and I'm done.


So I dunno where to pinpoint the depression, drugs, . . . . .

Also, I really do not care much about things one way or another but I do get
frustrated sometimes.


M

Fatigue is a real b****.

thank you so much Mari. I look forward to doing nothing except playing with my cats and drinking coffee.

this morning I think i took double my pills and had the lowest bloodpressure
112. my ekg was off too. now i have to go to the heart doctor

I think I would ask your reg doctor see you again another day so your readings are more accurate before seeing a cardiologist. ALso caffiene can interrupt an ekg...I think....
lets see what kay has to say.

bizi