Bobby,
Holidays can bring up unsettling memories.
It's good to hear that you found benefit from reading Julia Quinn.



M

I don't remember if I ever mentioned it after all these years but I am paranoid. I have been that way since I have been little and it also has interfered with my life. I think part of it was growing up with my father's rage and drinking, the enemy within and projecting the fears without. When I was young my neighbor who was a few years older than I was tried to strangle me twice and all my mother said was don't play with harvey. I don't even think she told his mother. II had some other scary experiences but not as scary. when I got my dogs I got a bit better and wasn't as afraid of walking down side streets. yesterday the friendly visitor came with goodies and a turkey dinner. I could never have done that volunteer work because I would be too paranoid. also I turned down a guy for a date and he threatened to kill me. I believed him.
last night I crashed again. so many painful memories-I really enjoyed reading and tennis and later squash and paddleball

I am sorry about your fears., and that those things happened to you.


Wasn't that wonderful that she bought you a meal.
Really pleased that you are reading again.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

the friendly visitor was a man of 84 who does a lot of volunteer work. I almost just applied to adopt another abyssian but stopped myself.

I am glad that you stopped. The 2 cats that you have is already enough work/expense to care for and they may not like another cat coming into the picture.
bizi

I forgot it was very scary having to be in the car when my father was drunk driving. as I mentioned before my parents were very critical. my father was very self critical and my mother wasn't. as I mentioned my father went to harvard law school and he thought his classmates were all idiots. only his professors were bright. I received constant criticism.
the cat had behavior problems and would pee occasionally outside the box. poor kitty cat. no wonder plus the bipolar i am so f@#ked up and never married

I am glad that you have your kitties to love and care for.
You have been thru so much and are worthy of love.
bizi

Sending hugs and good thoughts.

Donna

the new rabbi came over today and it was wonderful. I had an upsetting time with Marci yesterday. she showed no compassion over my explosion and burns and we almost got into a fight. she mentioned how much it hurt when she was burnt a little and I told her I was burnt almost 20 percent of my body in an explosion and suffered post traumatic stress which hasn't left me and made my bipolar anxiety worse. I don;t know what is going to happen. the rabbi is coming over again in a couple of weeks

Bobby

Kind of sounds like you need a break from Marci. Or someone
new for now.

She needs to remember who the person is that employees her
or her boss is.

Not just her friend.

Donna