I don't want to sell the shoes. did your mother have high standards for herself?
is that why she drank? is your father self critical? and judgmental?
my father went to harvard law school and thought all the kids in his class were dopes lol He said he wished he had studied more looking back instead of having fun. He only thought the professors were bright. My mother wasn't self critical.
My sister thought she was a princess and even lied about whom she went out with-ie chris dodd who was my friend's friend and was shorter and younger than Myra and had a crush on my short girlfriend.
I went over cecilia's yesterday again. Prince has his first agility class and it went very well. when I was over there he was busy biting a box and paid no attention to me. oh sell. He looks like sort of a petite german shepherd. cecilia is going to be away most of the weekend.
I have now convinced myself I need a stent for my heart once somebody said I had one vein toward the heart that was narrow

I am not depressed. I wonder if it is because I am reading an enjoyable book that is distracting me

Happy passover bobby.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I'm so glad that you are enjoying your book and aren't feeling depressed right now!!!

I wish that Prince showed you more attention when you saw him. It's hard to redirect animals when they really get into things like that tho. I'm sure next time he'll be more attentive to you.

Was your father a genius? It sounds like it.

My mother was beautiful and always dressed to the 9's. I don't have enough insight into her thinking to know what kind of standards she had for herself, but she was impressive. Both her parents drank. I don't know what else drove her to it, but she was a functional alcoholic. My father, not so much. He owned a business with a bar. When I was young he ran the business well, but warmed a bar stool all day. He's very self-critical and has the lowest self-esteem of any person I've ever met, but he's always made up stories to build himself up. My sister doesn't drink, but she is mean and very critical of me, and everyone else. I don't know what her problem is, but she's f***ed up.

did she care what other people thought or did she dress for herself? I wonder what kind of unconscious pressure she put on you. My father was so self critical and extremely bright but not a genius. He was critical of practically everyone lol. I really got the brunt of it.
I hope about prince. cecilia is relieved when I wrote her that the vet and my doctor said nothing to worry about with all the drugs I take and his licking. You should have seen him go after that Chewy box.
I finished another book this morning and onto another book. still not depressed and right now not anxious about the tests...probably later.
Was your father critical of you?
I bought more books this morning

Bobby

I'm glad things are looking up with the books. Keep reading and I think you found a great thing to do to pass time. I love reading I haven't been in the mood lately I buy books some but they wait till i feel like it.

So I have some waiting.
Donna

after the stroke I wasn't able to read much. Up until then I have always been a big reader. My mother used to complain about my reading and said I read too much. I hope I am able to continue to concentrate and read. I am still not depressed today. I bought so many books. I found two authors I really enjoy

I am happy for you that you are able to read again.
Great that you found 2 authors that you like.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

My mother cared A LOT about what other people thought. When we were growing up, she told my sister and I never to talk about what went on at home or they would take us away and put us in terrible places where terrible things would happen to us.
My father was very critical of both of us when we worked for him.

Why do you think your mother thought you read too much?

I think now it is a very good thing. Not only is it helping with your depression, it can help maintain cognition as you age.

I'm so happy you are feeling better

oh wow. your mother sounds so bad. how could she have thought up such a thing? I wonder what was going through her mind and how much shame she lived with. I just had a nightmare about my mother I dreamt she sort of gave Myra most of the money and left me with nothing. It was partially true. Later on in life she told me the state could take care of me. She hated that I mentioned that my father drank when everybody knew it.
I am so sorry you had to live with that overhanging your head. I forgot. did you nurse her when she developed and died from cancer. If so did she show appreciation and change. Am I confused?
love
bobby
when you didn't work for your father was he okay with you?