I thought they were part of being bipolar. I tell my psychiatrist. I am on topamax. that used to work. I used to smoke two packs a day. this past week I threw out a big pie and a box of cookies. I also ate a big pie and two boxes of cookies.

Hi,

Yes, certainly seems to be part of bipolar.

I've eaten a pie before.
It happens. I do not attach much meaning to it when I do that -- same as with other bipolar things.


It's part of how things go - this chaos in my head. I don't know.



M

As I get older my bipolar gets really clearer to me and I see how much it out of my control and how much I am controlled by my bipolar. It wasn't so obviously when I was younger and distracted by things. I don't know how I was able to accomplish what I accomplished.

I am just so angry anxious and exhausted. I see the psychiatrist tomorrow.
I have slept a lot today

glad that you slept today maybe you can sleep tonight too. and be well rested for your pdoc appointment.
I am sorry it s so hard.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I hope that the pdoc appointment goes well.



M

I'm sorry that you're feeling so isolated, Bobby (((((HUGS)))))

It isn't professional, normal, or IMHO ethical, for mental health/medical providers to share so much personal information for reasons such as why you have so many negative feelings about your therapist... it's like she's rubbing her happy life in your face- and that's NOT f- therapeutic. I think it's time for a change :hug::hug::hug:

I have been eating a TON of chocolate or ice cream every night for months. And I have my problems with binge buying streaks. Some of it is bipolar, but for me, a lot of it is OCD, too.

I wish that more could be done for your BP and insomnia, but your pdoc seems to take a very light touch with you as far as meds, and it's gotten worse since the stroke. It seems it isn't easy to convince him to change. I hope that your appointment goes well tho, and he makes some changes so you can get some relief :hug::hug::hug:

I hope you can start sleeping more/not getting up so early :hug::hug::hug:

I ate almost two pounds of mary janes yesterday. My psychiatrist is going to try me on xanax and says he hopes that helps that may help my sleeping too. He is going to do a trial first. I am having trouble with my drug store. He hasn't called the other drug store which is mail order. He agrees that I should get rid of the therapist and tell her why. I am very miserable.

I am glad that he gave you xanax Maybe you could just take it at night to see if it helps you sleep?
I am sorry that you are miserable.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

You have probably built up too much of a tolerance of Klonopin over time for it to be effective, so I'm glad that he is doing the trial of Xanax. I REALLY hope it helps with your sleep and anxiety.

I hope the pharmacy issues are resolved quickly.

I agree with your pdoc... when you dump your therapist you should tell her why. Maybe it will make you feel better to air out your feelings, and maybe she will learn something from hearing it, and won't make the same mistakes in the future.