I have been angry and depressed for a while now. It is not related to the new medication. today I slept at least six hours. I have been having trouble with the pharmacy.Finally they were supposed to deliver it yesterday but they didn't/
It is two blocks away and I am afraid I will go this morning and call them mfs. they have really been screwing up on this drug.
the cats are doing well and i finally got on the scale and i didn't gain any weight. i have been having trouble with ants because of the wet food. now i am throwing out after ten minutes

I haven't been able to read much so that may be part of it

I am glad that you slept at least 6 hours!!!!
bizi

I had the most incredible afternoon! I no longer see my therapist on friday afternoon. The young rabbi called and asked if I were free. I said yes. He freed me from guilt. I always felt badly that I couldn't follow the commandment of honoring my mother and father and always felt I was sinning. He showed me something from Maimonides Mishneh Torah,Rebels 6::10
A person whose father or mother loses control of their mental faculties should try to conduct the relationship to them according to their mental condition until God has mercy upon them. If it is impossible to remain with them because they have become very deranged, one should leave them,depart, and charge others with caring for them in an appropriate manner.

my parents treated me pretty badly

I am so glad that he is guiding you.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Bobby

I think that you found something much better than the therapist
just for today. Hoping he can come and give you some of these
nice thoughts again.

Maybe have him give you some things to read on these things too.

Donna

Did he say when he would be back?
I am so glad that he is in your life.
What a blessing.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Wow that is a good passage for him to point out.

He has deep sensitivity to go with his learning.


M

The Rabbi said he would come back in two weeks. I am trying to think of questions. Certain things I have done in my life which I am ashamed of I won't discuss. This morning I was thinking of my mother. when I was little I loved her so much and I even told her I would die for her. I thought how negative thoughts really rob us of energy and love gives us energy. I took a step this morning of loving my mother and letting go of the abusive behavior.

Bobby

Keep it up that is what I think you really need is small steps to look
at the good things you had with your mother. The things that
you saw in her when you were little that were good.

I am really impressed with your rabbi. I'm wondering if maybe
this can replace your therapist in a small way. The needing to
get through the thoughts of your past in your parents to a degree.
I don't think any therapist can see through these kind of things.
So they can only see to the present and the future. And want to
make changes.