I wonder if my lack of interest in drinking fluids

1) messes with my skin (dry skin and weird breakouts and itchiness) and
2) makes depression worse.


I should have asked pdoc during our appt. but I was only focused on not
crying.




M

SARNA is a good anti itch lotion for dry skin that is not steroidal.

bizi

Television
 

The t.v. guy came out Thursday and added a cable. Things are now working
as they should.



M

So glad to hear. Have a great weekend Mari

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Sometimes I'm just not in the mood to drink a lot of fluids for one reason or another... sometimes it's just because I just want to relax and not have to reach for a cup often, or get up to refill my glass all the time. But I find that I don't feel good when I do that.

Dehydration can definitely dry your skin out and make you itchy. Any good body lotion can help with that until and after you start rehydrating.

And if you are dehydrated enough to throw your electrolytes off, it can lead to shakiness, which could increase anxiety, which is not helpful for depression.

Thank you, ladies.


Today I tried to drink water. I think it was five 8 oz cups.


Maybe I will have one more to make it six.


M

I drink water sweetened with stevia because I don't like drinking plain water. I carry a gallon jug around in my car and drink as much as I can in between clients. Works for me.
bizi

You're doing a good job with the water, Mari. "They" say 6-8 cups (8 oz) of fluid is the way to go. It doesn't have to be all water tho. But you shouldn't count beverages with caffeine and alcohol.

Can't talk on the phone with Dad for a while
 

My father and I irritated each other on the phone. He was talking about
his traveling and seeing his sister with Alzheimer's. I asked a few questions
and he got angry as F. We both switched the subject but it was too
late. His second subject got him angry too.
My sister says he has lots of ANGER.

(My dad was the primary care giver with Alzheimer's for a little while
with his own mother.)

I think he hates the phone anyway.



M

I'm sorry that your conversation didn't go well. I think I remember that you normally get along well with your dad? :hug:
Hopefully a brief break will do the trick, and things will be back to normal :hug::hug::hug:

I wonder why he has so much anger? Is it new? Does your sister have any ideas as to why he is so angry?

I'm sure it will be hard for your father to see his sister now, and it will be a difficult trip for him.
Does he have any sx of dementia himself? If he does, and he is aware of them, that may explain some of the anger...

also growing old is hard. things don't work as well and you have to deal with them

That is so true Bobby. The only way for people to understand it is when they start getting old themselves. I never thought about it to much,but I'm at that point where people retire. Now I understand why the age of 65/66 is the standard retirement age. Some people cannot take to much activity past 65. BF:confused::hug::hug:

Kay,

My sis would like my father to get a an an initial office test in case the
doctor and my father would see want to see decline.
He refuses.
Sis tells me in general terms that he is fine now.


My sis was very involved with my grandmother.
It was hard for the whole family.


My father does see an MD for a yearly check up and
periodically does series of Physical therapy visits related
to his hip surgeries years ago.


M

It seems like your sister has your father's best interests at heart, but I don't blame him for refusing the baseline doctor's visit for dementia. I would be PO'd. Since he sees his PCP yearly, and has family who could pick up on signs and symptoms, that's not necessary. I'm glad she says he seems fine now :hug:

I'm sorry that your family has this history with Alzheimers Disease. Watching your grandmother go through it was very hard for all of you. I'm so sorry that your aunt is going through it now as well :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that your dad continues to keep up with PT. It's important to stay physically active. It sounds like he does a better job at it than I do.

Sis said that Dad's MD gave him a book about Alzheimer's.

The MD works out of a big research hospital.

It's good for Dad to have information about his sister.




M

That's wonderful, Mari. It sounds like your dad has a good doctor.

HE can read about his sisters condition and maybe look at his own subconsciously....maybe.
bizi

How are you doing Mari?
Are you getting a break from work?
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I had a wicked painful rash on the top (outside) of my hands and wrist for a while.

It seemed like dry skin that was opening up and becoming
blister-y. But drinking more water and putting coconut oil
on my hands did not help.

It was getting worse.

=--=-=-
I had Hubby me talk me through it. I realized it might be the hand soap
I was using. After three or four days of my old olive oil /scent free soap, it is looking better and feels less awful.


M

i am glad it is better

When something happens to us out of the blue, it really can disrupt our being.
Glad that is better.
bizi:hug:

I'm glad that you realized it was hand soap causing the rash, and it is better... it's so hard when you get one on your hands.
I had one on my hands not too long ago, and it seemed like every time I washed them, it made the rash worse. It turned out to be the hand lotion I was using.

I am depressed and lonely.

I spend most of my day trying to distract myself enough so that I can
make it through the day.







M

I am sending you a huge hug-it won't do the trick but it is something
love
bobby

Thank you, Bobby.

I hope you are feeling a little better

Still crying of and on. Thank you.


Listening to music at the moment.



M

I hope the music helped you. Life is so rough.

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling this way, Mari :hug::hug::hug:

Distractions are good.
I wish that I had some words of wisdom for you, but I can only send (((((HUGS)))))

I hope that you feel better soon :hug::hug::hug:

Thank you, Bobby and Kay.

How are you feeling now? Did something trigger it or was it just bipolar. I hope you were able to take a walk to the beach or something. When I feel alone and depressed which is often I just have to wait for it to pass and cling to God now.

Both:

triggered
and sad

does that mean you are angry too?

Not angry most of the time.


But I have cut my day down to nothing: staying in my computer room,
reading, listening to music, going on twitter.
Some days I watch a little t.v.

Hubby does the cooking and grocery shopping.
I wash dishes.



M

If what you are doing now is all you can handle, so be it. Your mental health comes first :hug::hug::hug:

When you start feeling better you can begin to engage more- as tolerated.

was temporarily freaked out -- lost new Klonopin. Then found it.
 

When I saw pdoc last, I told her that the recent Klonopin
was from a different manufacturer. It wasn't scored and it was crumbly.
I had to collect the dust to swallow -- hard to be accurate.


She had been writing scripts for 1.0 mg to be taken as 2.5 pills.
The new script is .5 mg to be taken as 5 pills.

Then I temporarily lost the new bottle without even opening it!

=-=-
Yesterday, I decided to look in my purse. DUH.
'So very happy.
Tonight I start on the new bottle. I hope counting 5 pills for the pill minder works.


M

what a relief and a pain

I had a problem getting my Klonopin the last time I filled it because there was "a problem with the manufacturer," and when I did get it, it was different.
The old pills were light green and scored, and the new pills are kinda of a bright blue that aren't scored and are hard to cut evenly. Maybe there was a problem with the manufacturer in your area, too?

Thank God you found that bottle! You must have been so relieved! :)

By typing this it might help me remember to pick up Gabapentin.I'm out after the dose I took tonight.
I wish I had meds stock-piled.


I visited my friend earlier. She had fallen a few days ago and went to the hospital
via ambulance for what turned out to be low red blood cells.

She's o.k. now.


M

What a coincidence! I forgot to fill MY gabapentin, and missed at least one dose!

I'm glad that your friend is okay now. Is she the one is who difficult to see sometimes (but you still visit) and has been battling cancer?