donna you are just great!
bizi

Thanks Bizi

I think differently than many.

Its just the way I guess I'm programmed.

Donna

I have definitely come down a lot. I think I'm experiencing my usual level of anxiety in the morning vs. agitation because it's responding to the Klonopin. I'm still antsy, but I think it's close to my normal level of restlessness. And there's cleaning to be done, and for the first time in a while, I'm not looking forward to it. I may be a little too high, but IDK. I think I need a couple more days (where I'm not so busy) to be sure.

I used Stop and Shop's Pea Pod pick up service today. I bought 3 cases of water this time, so hopefully I don't have to beg strangers to help me anywhere else anymore. If we run out, Corey's going to have to go the store to buy more himself. I made him bring in the last case of water from the other grocery store last night, and he was just thrilled about it, but TS.
I brought in the frozen crap and perishables when I got home. He'll bring the rest of the groceries in when he gets home, and complain about how much I bought. TS again.

I ran out to pick to CVS to up milk and a couple of other things yesterday, but was weary about running more errands because I was expecting those packages, so I had to get everything else done this morning.
Fortunately everything was in close proximity to each other and Stop and Shop... but I'm exhausted and in pain.

I never took the mag. citrate last night. I fell asleep on the couch, and when I woke up, I just couldn't make myself drink it. I absolutely have to to do it tomorrow night tho. No excuses.

I have to have my Tysabri infusion tomorrow morning.
And I'm getting nervous about seeing the surgeon on Friday.



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Thinking about you Kay.

Donna

Is it a meet and greet? will he be examining you?
hope you stabilize asap.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

There is a lot wrong with me. I'm going into Boston because no one locally will do the surgery, and it's something you would want somebody very experienced to do anyway.

The appointment with the surgeon (a woman named Dr. Chen) is a consultation. I'm seeing her to find out 1) if I need surgery (I do) and 2) if she will do it.

My gastro has already told me that he would recommend removing my sigmoid colon because of the sigmoidocele (herniation). I have no idea how she would repair the other two problems: a problem with my rectum, and a thinning of the wall between my V and A.

I don't know whether or not she would agree to repair anything, everything, do it all at once... or agree to do it because there's NO F'ING WAY I'll agree to a stoma/colostomy.

I don't know how soon the surgery would be done if she agrees to do it, how long I would be in the hospital, etc...

So, I have a lot of worries, and a lot of questions. If I have the surgery done, it could improve my quality of life, so this is a very big deal.

I took another nap yesterday. That's definitely an improvement. And I think I'm dealing with the the potential surgery situation pretty well. I'm not agitated, and my anxiety level is back to normal... 1mg of Klonopin in the am is pretty much taking care of it.

I *think* I may still be slightly too high tho. I could probably stay here and be okay at least until I see my pdoc on the 3rd, and right now, I think that's what I'm going to do.

I've been up since 5:30am, but I've been farting around. I have to be at the hospital for 9am for my Tysabri infusion, so I have to get my ***** in the shower...

Oh kay will be thinking of you on friday.


hope the infusion tech doesn't take too long.
bizi

you are amazing!
Love
bobby

KAY,


'Sending good thoughts for the surgeon appt Friday.



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