[Mari]

Hi, Bizi,

Congrats on completing day 27.

It appears that you are doing well on your food plan -- you sound good.

The two-week trip coming up and the visit with your sister gives you something
nice to look forward to.

Enjoy the Christmas concert Thursday.



M

[bizi]

Thank you mari,
the christmas concert is tonight.
And I know we will enjoy it.
Will your university have a christmas concert?

Do they have a choir or school of music?
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

I really have been impressed with how you are doing.
I'm hoping you can keep doing really good.

Donna

[bizi]

The christmas concert was just fair.
I literally slept thru the first half nodding awake it was embarressing. Karen teased me about it a bit too much after word. I did not like that. Even jeff said something about her teasing me. She said I even snored....
oh well the second half was better. But the over all concert was boring.
Even the traditional christmas carols medley at the end lacked life.
Oh well they can't all be great!
Jeff has a gig this evening so another dinner alone tonight.
I will have left overs again...I have some chicken and beef and lentils to eat.
There is nothing thawed so I don't know what we will do if he does make it home briefly, maybe go to the express pizza place a few blocks from us where we can get a great thinned crust pizza in no time flat!
I will just eat the toppings and fore go the crust, that worked fine last time.
175.5 This morning, the least I have weighed in months. So happy to be losing weight....still can't tell when I look in the mirror. I still look very pregnant. That is 11 pounds in 4 weeks time.

Today is the 29th day AF.
I feel strong in my resolve about not drinking.
Being on 2 anti psychotics at the same time is finally letting me sleep.
Being on meds for decades has contributed my memory issues.
I used to be able to math in my head...now I can't...I have to use the calculator for all simple calculations.

sigh
It is warming up today some rain in the forecast. Some wind which I don't like but I will take the warmer weather.
Thinking about Kay this morning and how her surgery went. I think she said it would be a long surgery like 6 hours, maybe I am wrong about that.
I hope you all have a fine thursday.
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

I would love to get down to the weight you are at now. I realize that
you aren't happy there, but I sure would love it.

So I'm going to pray that maybe by the time you are ready for your
vacation you can hit the 170 mark, if that seems feasible.

Donna

[bizi]

I think I will get off zyprexa. I see my pdoc on wednesday next week so will talk to her about that.


I was not sleeping very well with jsut the .5mg of klonipin and more so we added melatonin and it seemed to help but added zyprexa to see if I could sleep better. I don't want to get metabolic syndrome.


bizi

[Mari]

My old sleep MD spoke about the timing of melatonin:
it needs to be taken about an hour or two before bedtime --- it's
essentially a hormone and does not work like our
prescribed medicines.



M

[bizi]

Thank you mari,
I am not taking the melatonin right. I am just lucky to get my nights meds down me let alone have to try to take something 2 hours before bed time. I was thinking that maybe the melatonin would help keep me asleep.The klnoipin helps me get to sleep.
I won't stop the zyprexa till I see pdoc this coming wednesday..
bizi

[bizi]

today marks a month of Alcohol free living.
have lost about 10 pounds so that is progress.
Would never been able to lose weight because of the fattening beers that I drink, and because I am a binge drinker so there is that.
Tackling addictions is hard work...2 of 3 at the same time. My internet addiction is in full swing though...need to reel that in too.
sigh
We have the christmas party to go to, there will be lots of food and alcohol there, I will bring sodas and hot tea to drink. I hope to be controlled on my eating. Maybe eat something here so that way I am not starving by the time we eat around 7pm. Need to come up with a gag gift for the gift exchange(white elephant)...steal gifts, it is fun!

have a great weekend yall.
Have to work in the morning
There is a play that I want to see....modern Shakespeare, mcbeth.

bizi

[bizi]

The christmas party was a success.
I drank chocolate flavored water all night.
The food was not as good as last year: cabbage rolls tasted funny. and white beans with smoked sausage which I did not eat because I am on a diet. I also did not eat the short bread cookies and I ate some salad. Before, I ate at home because I did not know what they were going to serve. I ate some chicken and ground beef with a few lentils.
So between eating and drinking I am full. I really did not want a drink, just dealt with my awkwardness and social anxiety issues by holding a cup with a tea bag hanging off the edge.That cup of tea got me thru the evening.
There was a white elephant christmas game where people can steal your gift. It was fun!
My poor hubby still has a head ache for the past 3 days which I did not know about. It is worse tonight...I think it is a migraine, is light sensitive. I gave him 4 advil. WE kind of left the party earlier than normal to take home jeffs friend Sarah. He came right home and went to bed. I am glad it is the weekend..for him to recover.
I work out of town tomorrow morning to see 3 residents at a retirement/assisted living facility. I go there once a month. I will check out a chatroom to see if there are still chatters there. They have been having friday nights chats which have been nice/fun.
I have to leave the house by 8:15am, so will set my alarm for 7:30.
bizi