I sometimes go to work with four hours of sleep or less and by the
end of the day I am not with it -- not in control of my self/ my emotions,
my actions . . . Sometimes I almost feel that I cannot see straight.


On good days (even with four hours of sleep) and bad days I can (somehow) be high energy -- talking fast,
going back and forth between two or three sets of kids in two rooms ---

---multi-tasking

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But that chaos probably (DUH) might be o.k. for some of them but
is not considered professional. . . . and some of them do not respond
well to the chaos -- esp if they are having a bad day too.


I may have crossed a line.


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In the future, when I am an that messed up, I should figure out how to
walk out and go hide in my office or drive home.


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'Sorry this is long.

Students get used to me and we all adjust to each other well enough most
of the time.
But it's new in the semester and we have not settled into a comfortable
enough pattern with each other yet.



M

Good luck in settling in this semester mari.
(((((HUGS)))))
Wishing you could sleep more.
bizi

I went to the dental hygienist.


Afterwards she gently said what she says after every visit:
she would like me to do a little more on my own than I do.


I said, "i'm already doing what I can do."

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The Good news I think is that we are getting out of the cold period
and moving to our more normal weather patterns.



M

I can understand how you react both ways to being overtired (((HUGS)))

I don't have to work tho.
I'm sorry that you have to struggle with so little sleep and have to go to work, and have concerns about how your behavior when you get overtired may effect your students

I wish there was a way you could bail out early, or hide under your desk at the end of the day

It seems like you go to the dentist's office pretty often, so you are caring for your teeth and mouth

Kay, this is a good idea. THX.

I do have the ability to stop class early and let students leave.

. . . . . Especially if someone is causing a ruckus.

It sets a bad precedent. But I can remind myself of that option.



I would not be able to do it every day.



M

Mari,

You have to do what you have to do to make things work

Yesterday I noticed some little bumps on the palm of my right hand.

I did not worry about it much but today I woke up with it on the right wrist as well AND on the left hand. And the itchiness has increased.


I put some cortizone on both palms and wrists as my sister instructed --
-- she says that the Docs often prescribe cortizone.


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Hubby helped me navigate the health insurance portal so I can
find a dermatologist on my health care plan within driving distance.
I printed out a few pages of nearby names so I can call from work Monday.


M

good luck. One of the medications I had tried recently caused me maybe two months of itchiness all over my body. calamine lotion helped me.

Am hoping you are able to see a dermatologist . If they are too busy to be seen, then ask to be put on their waiting list.
bizi

Since the bumps are bilateral, and I know that you would be aware of any potential changes that could have caused them, I'm glad that you are going to the dermatologist to get them checked out, Mari

I hope that you can see a dermatologist soon without having to search too much, and the bumps end up being something benign and easily treatable