Thank you for your kind words Blue.

My mother had been in bad health for a few years. She was not
doing very well and was in an nursing home. But it was still
very fast and not expected. 3 of my sisters lived right there in
town were she lived, and I lived in a town about 1 1/2 hours
away. I visited as much as I could and took my youngest son
who was the closest to her. My other son's went as much as
they could. But we did as much as we could. One of my sisters
is having a really hard time with her passing, much more than I am
I think. But hopefully she will get through it too.

I also miss Waves, if anyone talks to her tell her I said Hi please.

Donna

I talked to waves a couple of years ago by email. Since then my computer crashed, and I lost all the computer memory. I should have written her email down. BF

You know what tears my heart apart every time I think about it ? I have missed my grandma my whole life.... she passed away when I was 3... Im 36 years old now and all my life I have complained for not having my grandma.... she cooked delicious, she painted, she liked to make clothes for everybody.... and I couldnt enjoy her.... and now my mother.... If I ever have a boyfriend, she wont meet him.... If I ever get married she wont be there.... if I ever get kids, well, she wont be there.... you know, that's very hard.... I simply cant deal with this

My Mom and I are not close. There is nothing wrong exactly except that
we do not connect.

When we do talk, we talk about books she has read or that I recommend for her
or about her work with her County Master Gardeners where she
talks with other gardeners.
Lately she teaches composting and other aspects of gardening.


You are blessed to have memories of closeness with your Mom.

M

Blue (((Hugs))) (((Hugs))) (Hugs))) You have been through so much.

Thank you Mari....

Your relation with your mom sounds like mine with my dad....

Im tired of life.

You must carry on. I know life is a struggle for you right now. You have more strength in you then you could possibly know. (((Gentle Hugs))) Hug Hug Hug

Blue
You have to realize you can talk to her daily. And she can see you
daily. She can meet your friends, and boyfriends. She will let
you know somehow if she likes them or not. I'm pretty sure my
mom lets me know every once in a while that she likes what I'm
doing or not. I think its kind of why I've been getting more
cases lately. She is letting me know that I'm doing a good job.

Donna