Oh LOL, I re-read my message and I see how I screwed it up... What I meant to say was that Xanax rescued me from my ultra horrible anxiety Sorry about the misunderstanding.... My anxiety was horrible, xanax was not hehe. I took xanax in emergencies like that one

I was really tired of my brain which wouldnt stop "talking"...

I'm sorry I misread your post, Blue

I re-read it keeping in mind that it was your anxiety was so terrible, and it was not a result of the Xanax. It sounds like you were suffering from a really bad case of "catastrophic thinking," which is common for people who suffer from anxiety

You don't have to decide from day to day (in advance) whether or not you will take the Xanax unless you know you will have to drive somewhere, operate heavy equipment (lol), or be particularly on top of your game for some other reason.
When the time comes, if you feel like you need it, take it. That's why you have the prescription for it

Xanax is good for panic, anxiety, and depression. It basically works for four hours. I've been taking it for years, usually four times a day. Take the same amount, and don't take more, and more of it. If you take more, and more of it, it stops working. BF

Just to clarify Blue, BF is entirely correct. Many people taking benzo's regularly overuse them (or abuse them) and they no longer work like they should. I know someone who has blown through both Klonopin and Xanax doing that.

But you are taking Xanax as needed, so that's different. it's okay to take it more than once a day if you are experiencing strong anxiety.
What's important is that you make sure that you follow the directions that your pdoc has given you

I wouldn't take Xanax if you don't need it. It is addictive. If you need it, take it. If you take it for a while and want to stop taking it, taper off of it slowly. Do it as slowly as you need. I recommend a period of six months to a year or more. Our anxieties are bad enough, and we don't want to make it worse. If you tell a doctor, he may do it drastically, and fast causing a mental health crisis. I have been through a doctor's cold turkey idea where I stopped taking a medication suddenly. I ended up drinking and was sick with anxiety. It was a much stronger medication for sleeping. I'm glad that I didn't die. I don't think that they do this anymore.

Just know it. You can taper off of it over a long period of time. I did this one time around 25 years ago. Then there came a time where I needed it again. What can you do? It's a difficult decision. Extreme anxiety is difficult to treat, and I hope that better medications can come about in the future.

Don't let anyone rush you off of your medications if you need to do it slowly. It's best to do it yourself. You can do it in a way that is comfortable for you. After all, doctors are human beings, and human beings make mistakes. Doctors have made many mistakes with me, and people have given me bad advice because they had no clue as to what I was going through. I sometimes go through hell with these anxieties and depressions, and sometimes people make it worse. People without horrible anxiety have no idea what we are going through. The only reason why I am still alive is by the grace of God.

Otherwise, take them as prescribed. Don't take more than are prescribed. That's when they stop working after awhile. BF

Hello Blue. Are you okay? BF

Hello my friends !!!

I have been very busy with my ultra awesome job scheduling interpreters all day in front of a computer so tired AND super depressed.... Anxiety has been controlled fortunately.... but gosh, I have been sooooooo down.... very sad.... I cry a lot, feel so lonely, so empty.... I miss my mom SO F word much, A LOT... I wish I had a family, my own family I mean.... And, that, makes me so sad....

I never was an envious (sp ?) person until now.... every day I feel more and more envy of the people with their moms.... beginning with my cousins.... why my mom and not theirs ? they are annoying, rude, zero empathic... but no, God and life decided it was my mom and me who had to be separated.... oh ok, Im mad,sad, etc.... Terrible. I consider myself a horrible person now. But, I Cant help it.... at the end, being a good girl has never given me good things eh ?

I feel like my life has no sense.,.. no purpose....

Being busy can give us a sense of purpose, like we are really needed in our job. Know that they need you.
Am sorry you are missing your mom.Time does help....
I still have my mother and am fortunate because he lost her sister barb last year she was only 81. Mom turned 80 in feb. we are throwing her a birthday party this july 6th. It is an open house on the campus of notre dame, IN.
Hoping that there is a good turn out.


HOw old was your mother?
Tell us more about her if you are up to it.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Blue I miss my Dad also, so I can relate to what you are saying. I lost my mother before that. I lost my sister about four years ago. Right now I feel very lonely. I don't know what to do about it. These things happen to a bunch of us, but it's not suppose to weaken us. I try to spend some time with the Lord, and I find that hard to do these days. That's all I can do at this time. I'm sorry for your depression, and anxiety. I can relate to those emotions also. BF

I guess my job is not that important to make me feel Im needed in this world to be honest Anybody could do what I do....

Only 81... my mom was ONLY 59... Imagine that !!! Life does suck. How I wish my mom could have lived "at least" 80.... oh well, **** my life, ,my luck or whatever rules who live longer than others...


My friend, I need you to help me with some faith questions I have and Im sure you will help me... I will send you a private message soon, when Im feeling less miserable, less tired and angry with life.