I am sorry that your mom died at age 59.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I am also sorry that your mother died. Life can be very difficult, but you are here, and God has a reason for you to be here. He Loves you very much. Have you read the Psalm recently. That will help you to feel better. BF

Dear Majo,


So so sorry for the sadness you are experiencing in missing your Mom.

'Lots of hugs.

'Lots of wishes that eventually the pain is less sharp.

If it helps you, tell us something about her.


M

Majo

I always wondered why god decided my dad should be taken at the age of 60 or 61. He hadn't even retired when he first got sick. He retired just a few
weeks before he died. Derrick and my nephew Ben were born just a month or two before he died. And they will be 28 this May and June. My dad will be gone for 28 years this July. So I can totally relate to your wondering why.

At that point I would have told you I had no reason to be here, but for my boys. I didn't feel important. I had no job. Nothing that held me here.
SO I can relate to that too. But I've learned in the years to come since then that there are reason's for everything that happens.

First I have a job now that I love, I've had it for almost 18 years. And I wouldn't have thought I'd ever have this kind of job. I personally think
we all have a reason for being here.

SO I think your here for us to know you. So I'm hoping you will tell us
about your mom we are waiting.
Donna

My mother died 22 years ago when she was 46, I was 17, and my poor little brother was only 9 years old.

You are not a horrible person. Your wounds from losing your mother are obviously still very fresh, and you need time to heal. You have a right to your feelings and shouldn't judge yourself for being jealous, etc

I'm so sorry that you are still so deeply depressed, but I'm happy to hear that your anxiety is under control (((HUGS)))

I know that sometimes finding our place in life takes time. But we all have a purpose, whether we realize it or not. I think that God has a plan for us all

I floundered for a long time after my mother died (which I don't think is uncommon or abnormal) until my CNA career fell into my lap, which led to me going back to nursing school in my mid-20's. I enjoyed what I did, and it gave me a palpable sense of purpose until MS put an end to all of that.

Is there something that you can think of that could make your life happier? A different type of job? A hobby or activity that you enjoy doing that you could do more, or get more involved in/pursue further? Or any other goal that you can think of that you can work towards?

Those are just ideas.

Thinking of you today, Blue (((HUGS)))

Blue How are you doing? BF

Hello dear friends,

I always find comfort in your messages... you are really the best

Your messages were so beautiful and touching.... I feel very blessed to have you in my life

I have been feeling very lonely-... but also, empty.... like, it is very difficult for me to keep having hope in life you know....

But I come here, and re read your message, cry and then I feel better

My mood has been changing A LOT.... I mean, more than before.... I guess it is because I’m more sensitive now ( I thought I was ultra sensitive already hehe) and everything can make me feel nostalgic or super angry suddenly...- oh well

I want to go to Las Vegas to go see this band my mom and I loved/love.... I feel exited but stressed at the same time.—- like, how Am I gonna survive going there, full of memories without my mom ?
Don’t know.—. It’s hard to think !

Much love

Hi,

I was in a Vegas with first husband for a night or so.

It was soooooo long ago that I do not remember much.

I remember that the landscape was foreign to anything else I
had ever seen. It was so beautiful.
The people were nice
And at that time the food was very cheap.


I believe that, if you go, your memories will give you strength.



Mari

You are such a lovely person, we are fortunate to have you in our lives was well. I'm glad that you find comfort and friendship here on the forum. We are always here for you

I'm so sorry that your mood hasn't lifted, and you are still suffering. Anger can accompany depression. How is your anxiety? (((HUGS)))

I got married in Las Vegas! It was just my husband and I. We had such a good time... it was a trip of a lifetime! Mari is right, it is a beautiful place, and the people are exceedingly nice. I would LOVE to go back there again.

I think if you go to the concert, your mother would like that, and would be there with you as you make new memories (((HUGS)))

Blue Work on being in love with the person in the mirror who has been through so much but is still standing. Author unknown BF