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Hey Blue!

We haven't met yet. I'm newer here. Call me Gee! I technically don't have bipolar2 dx, but I have a dx of unspecified bipolar presenting with depression at the time. I've had elevated moods before and after though, but the after ones, at least, haven't qualified as elevated enough according to my GP (and well I'm not complaining since I haven't done anything reckless and just had good moods after so long and was productive). But before dx, I did feel like I was having sort of mixed episodes and/or just dysphoric moods and that was no bueno. Is your name (username) Latina by chance? Er Latino? (Quick Google makes me think I was right, but it is masculine)

Anyway, I'm so sorry to hear about your circumstances and I'm sending you good thoughts. Wish I could say something more profound, but I will echo the thought that you stick around. Of course, I hope that circumstances improve though.

Actually, I don't know any books, but on my PC (I'm on my tablet now) I have a bookmark about dealing with grief from PsychCentral archives. (The sister site to this forum) I wasn't going through a permanent loss (death), but I was going through a different kind of permanent loss and was grieving. Took me like 2 or 3 years to fully get over it. Sigh! (IT was a loss of a friendship that I had been very attached to and thought they felt the same thing) While it wasn't a romantic loss, I've been told that losing a friendship can hurt just as much, and it did. :/ So, I can relate to your current loss too, and the shock by it too. I'm so sorry. Hugs! I'll try getting that link for you soon!
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I am so sorry you are suffering so much. I think being bipolar exacerbates it and makes one have such negative thoughts. I just lost my best friend from cancer a few months ago. she fought it for 3 1/2 years. I am so obsessed with death now and haven't been able to deal with her loss. I know I should try to focus on the good memories. and think her mission on earth was accomplised and she is no longer suffering.Have you tried praying? I don't know what else helps besides time. I blame bipolar on having poor judgment in choice of men too. Try to look for somebody who is kind to you and who appreciates all that you have to offer. I never thought that when I was younger. I was attracted to excitement which I also blame on bipolar. I know this sounds awful but instead of focusing on what you don't have think of all the people who have far less than you have.. I think that is awful but I think it helps. I just started trying that when somebody suggested it. May God forgive me.
You are so special and loved. May your suffering ease.
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Hello Gee !
Nice to meet you !!!

Thank you so much for your words, they mean a lot. Im latin, yes, Im Mexican (Im a girl).

Losing a friend.... this is more or less my case, I mean, we never properly dated.... I just had a glimpse of hope, that, if I were patient maybe we would one day.... bleh. Too sad.



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Hey Blue!

We haven't met yet. I'm newer here. Call me Gee! I technically don't have bipolar2 dx, but I have a dx of unspecified bipolar presenting with depression at the time. I've had elevated moods before and after though, but the after ones, at least, haven't qualified as elevated enough according to my GP (and well I'm not complaining since I haven't done anything reckless and just had good moods after so long and was productive). But before dx, I did feel like I was having sort of mixed episodes and/or just dysphoric moods and that was no bueno. Is your name (username) Latina by chance? Er Latino? (Quick Google makes me think I was right, but it is masculine)

Anyway, I'm so sorry to hear about your circumstances and I'm sending you good thoughts. Wish I could say something more profound, but I will echo the thought that you stick around. Of course, I hope that circumstances improve though.

Actually, I don't know any books, but on my PC (I'm on my tablet now) I have a bookmark about dealing with grief from PsychCentral archives. (The sister site to this forum) I wasn't going through a permanent loss (death), but I was going through a different kind of permanent loss and was grieving. Took me like 2 or 3 years to fully get over it. Sigh! (IT was a loss of a friendship that I had been very attached to and thought they felt the same thing) While it wasn't a romantic loss, I've been told that losing a friendship can hurt just as much, and it did. :/ So, I can relate to your current loss too, and the shock by it too. I'm so sorry. Hugs! I'll try getting that link for you soon!
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Thank you so much for this Bobby, you cant imagine how much I appreciate your time, your words. I feel pretty lonely. I had the urge to tell everybody about my "loss" since he told he was living with his girlfriend and, well, every single person left me in "read" but never replied, or say anything.... oh well

I blame my mental health for many things and pain in my life too now that I think about it.... Right now for example, I am obsessed imagining him with her, kissing, cuddling, etc, hurting myself so much and I cant stop. Obsession is bad. I have to admit I have problems with praying.... maybe because I do not understand it... I feel like I have prayed a lot all my life to no avail....

Thank you so so much for thinking of me as special You are too kind,

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I am so sorry you are suffering so much. I think being bipolar exacerbates it and makes one have such negative thoughts. I just lost my best friend from cancer a few months ago. she fought it for 3 1/2 years. I am so obsessed with death now and haven't been able to deal with her loss. I know I should try to focus on the good memories. and think her mission on earth was accomplised and she is no longer suffering.Have you tried praying? I don't know what else helps besides time. I blame bipolar on having poor judgment in choice of men too. Try to look for somebody who is kind to you and who appreciates all that you have to offer. I never thought that when I was younger. I was attracted to excitement which I also blame on bipolar. I know this sounds awful but instead of focusing on what you don't have think of all the people who have far less than you have.. I think that is awful but I think it helps. I just started trying that when somebody suggested it. May God forgive me.
You are so special and loved. May your suffering ease.
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I really think your prayers are helping you whether you feel it or not. It brings you closer to God which is so wonderful even if it doesn't feel comforting. If only you could stop torturing yourself. I do the same thing. It is bipolar. I read a lot of happy ending stories to escape painful emotions. Of course a lot of times I feel too rotten to read. I have two kitty cats that comfort me. I wonder if you are any pets. I don't know how much spare time you have. I am retired.
It can be so very painful to be bipolar and have no control over it.
Take good care.
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I'm doing ok. Me and Derrick, and hubby are at home right now going on 6 weeks now. Thanks to this mess. Derrick and hubby go to town to shop for groceries and medicines. And my asthma keeps me in as much as possible
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Hi Blue. We love you. I'm sorry that you are grieving. BF
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Holy moly.... I dont even remember how to reply to each one of you in the same post.... so, a big message for everything will have to do

Dear Bizi... I wish you mom could be eternal so you dont have to experience this pain never in your life.... losing a mom is like all the sum of all the pain you have felt in your life multiplied by 1,000,0000,0000,0000 + times.... it is pure hell. I feel a hole where my heart is supposed to be... like, for real, not literally.... horrendous. You are right.... the second year is feeling like worse....

Mari !!!!!!! I always kept you in my thoughts oh.... uff, my mom was my.... best friend, my favorite company.... my motivation.... I could write a book of all the happy moments we had.... but tonight I wanna share my mom was very special.... she never did anything to anyone, always helped.... she was so strong.... survived so many difficult times.... always with a smile... she had a great faith in God (in who I no longer believe btw) and she was so humble, funny, protective, natural.... damn how much I need her

(((Donna))) I feel guilty.... I feel like I didnt give her all that she deserved... maybe it was my fault that she died because I didnt take her to the doctor more often ? I wish I could change everything.... If I could do everything in a different way....

Kay !! I dont doubt that meds did their thing at some point but.... not enough, not anymore.... same with therapy.... it was talk talk and talk and, sometimes I use the advices my therapist gave me but, this damn pain doesnt go away and it bothers me even physically ?
Terrible.

Bobby.... I have missed you.

I have missed you all....

Where is waves ? Wheres is BrokenFriend ?



Im more a chronic depressive than bipolar.... but my friends have always been in this forum

Hi blue, maybe you are having some grief some over your mothers death.????
Just wondering out loud.
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