Dear Neuro Talk -BiPolar forum friends....

I dont even remember why I stopped coming here... I think I realized I was never going to feel better or change my view of the world and I thought it was boring for you to keep reading my vents, complaints and rants.... Oh my Im so negative ! Sorry....

I dont even know how to write this... it is like I need to tell you so much stuff and at the same time I dont want this to be an ultra long post and... yeah.... My mother died unexpectedly January of 2018... if I have always considered my life to be horrible, not it is pure hell.... I dont even know how I survived last year without her.... and, I feel sorry for bringing my grief and negative view of life to this forum... I just... missed you.

I found visitor messages I didnt read years ago and... I feel very emotional.... I saw a therapist for 1 year.... took meds.... I guess that's the only reason I didnt do something stupid you know ? but it stoped working... I mean, there was nothing left she could do for me....

I miss my mom
I feel so lonely
I hate life
I lost all faith I had left
Im always angry and depressed
and yeah.... I no longer know how to function or why should I try to even function you know...

I look forward to read you again...

Thank you

Majo

Dear Blue,
I am sorry you lost your mom....I can't imagine losing mine.
The first year you are in shock, the second year is worse.
Am sorry to hear that meds are not working for you.
If you want to share what meds you have tried.....
Do you still have a diagnosis of bipolar?
bizi

Hi, Majo,

So sorry to hear about your missing your mom.

If you are up to it, can you share with us a good memory you have
of her?


I'm glad you posted. I've thought about you and wondered what you
were up to.


M

Hi Majo

I to have missed you. I also lost my mom this last year.

I hope you will come back and tell us some of your happy
memories of her. We are always here for you.

Donna

I'm glad that you came back to us!

We are here to support one another through the good times and the bad, and for some of us, there are few happy times, and we vent more because we are struggling, and that is okay. That is why this forum is here (((((HUGS)))))

I am so sorry that you lost your mom. It sounds like it was, and still is, extremely hard for you. I'm so sorry that her death was so sudden. That makes it even harder

I wish that you were doing better, and that meds and therapy were helping you more. I hope that you haven't stopped trying- at least with the meds

Share what you need to. We are here, and listening.

I am so glad you came back. so sorry about your mother
bobby

Hi Blue!

It's been quite a while since we've heard from you.
Please check in when you can... you are missed!!!

I hope you are doing okay (((HUGS)))

Blue. How are you doing? I haven't heard from you in a while. Are you doing okay? If not, we are all here struggling together. Please come back. BF

Thinking of you blue!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thank you my dear friends,
I have been in a deep dark hole and while I do appreciate your empathy, support and love so much, some days I feel like I should not "pollute" you with my negativity, my problems.... you know, days are gray for me all the time...

I swear I keep trying to look the bright side of things but, it doesnt work.... Im surrounded by people that keep making me feel irritated and stressed but I need to work, I need the money so, here I am.... trying to cope the lack of compassion of this people.... I dont know why cant they simply leave me alone.

Today specially Im having a hard time trying not to cry in front of this people.... Everything makes me teary.... my heart and soul literally aches and I just wanna quit from everything....