[mymorgy]

maybe you should try drinking hibiscus and camomille tea. I just drank two cups of chamomille tea and I took my blood pressure and it went down to 135. Last night before I went to bed and drink two more cups and slept til seven!
maybe that can replace your klonopin. sleeping pills never worked for me.
love
bobby

[bizi]

Used to take benadryl at night for 2 years then it stopped working.

Wonder if I could take/try that again?
I don't like chamomile tea, I know I am weird. Thanks for the suggestion bobby, glad that it helped you!


I took the regular melatonin and let it dissolve in my mouth which it took forever!!!!! Tonight I am going to chew it into pieces and try to let them dissolve. I pulled out my pill boxes for 2 weeks so I can get the tapering straight. She gave me 15 more pills today with no refills.
I remembered later last night that I used to get restless leg syndrome and the klonipin took that away. Maybe that was a side effect of one of the meds that I take. Will see if it comes back, I hope not.



Kay, I was given the name of the therapist who agreed to see me. I am to call her on monday as she is on vacation this week. I guess I will see what she has to say, apparently there is a non religious AA meeting that she knows about....I am not interested in the 12 steps so will try to go one time and see how it is run. It would be nice to have a sponsor though. Her charge is $120 an hour. She would see me every 2 weeks. Well I can't afford that.


Since jeff has been away...I have gone out.
I don't like to be alone.
Have eaten too much. Drank too much.
I pulled a big bunch of climbing wicked vines out of a bush in the front yard and a couple of wasps came flying out, I must have disturbed them.


What happened to the me that was dieting and going to the gym??????
I am now in the obese category and have a 40 inch waist which is extra hard on your heart.
heavy sigh
bizi

[Gethprime]

Originally Posted by OhKay

I'm sorry that Dr. O is forcing you off your Klonopin. Since you have enough pills, doing the taper your way makes sense to me. I want you to be as comfortable as possible
Melatonin never worked for me either, and I've tried more than once.
Have you tried Trazodone? Just an idea. Never worked for me either tho

I know you don't like 12-step programs. Why are you agreeing to see the councilor?

I'm glad that you met those women! I hope that things work out and you can meet up with them again soon! With 10 ladies in the group, the odds are good that you will get along really well with at least one of them!

my wife takes trazadone and requip for her RLS. I dont think the trazadone does much on its own, but with the requip her sleep has gotten quite better.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Gethprime

my wife takes trazadone and requip for her RLS. I dont think the trazadone does much on its own, but with the requip her sleep has gotten quite better.

I tried trazadone and it was bad for me. It congested/dried me up so I could not breath out of my nose. I could not sleep and that was what it was for!

Thanks for the reminder of requip for restless legs.
bizi

[bizi]

just poured 5 beers down the drain.
Yesterday, I had 10-11 lost track. I did not even feel drunk! My tolerance had gotten so high.
Today is day 1.
I call the substance abuse counselor on monday to see if I can start some real therapy with an expert/specialist.
I also weighed myself.
188.3....I am really going to watch my carbs again and lose some of this weight. It is a repeated cycle. I stop drinking then diet and lose some weight then start drinking again and regain all that I lost.
I must break this cycle.
bizi

[mymorgy]

I wish you the best
love
bobby

[OhKay]

When I saw the substance abuse councilor because of my DUI, it wasn't bad at all. She was more focused on my mental health and trying to get me to ask for help (for anything), and to help me be less impulsive.
And the 12 step thing and religion were not mentioned at all some of the AA meetings I went to, so maybe this councilor can work with you without pressing those points, or making them obvious to you

I'm glad that you are open to the counseling. I hope that whomever you see is experienced in dual-diagnoses. I think that you will do well. You sound ready right now (((HUGS)))

[bizi]

Thanks bobby and kay for your support.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[bizi]

today is day 1....and I already want to drink. sigh

I won't though.

but my internet time has been out the roof so to speak.
at least I did a little yard work...it is all so overwhelming.
I neglected the yard for so long...it used to be so pretty now it is over grown and awful looking.
sigh
I spoke with a friend of mine she told me of a couple of AA meetings that are non religious. so that is great! It meets twice a week...wed and sat. nites at 6pm.

This friend of mine has been sober for 12 years. She said she would get me a counselors phone number who works with results based therapy.
Sounds good to me.
My psych doctor gave me the name and number of a therapist from an out patient facility that does utilize a 12 step program, which I am not interested in doing.
bizi

[mymorgy]

that really sounds grreat!
love
bobby