[OhKay]

The first sober days are going to be the hardest

You have a lot of tools in your tool belt that I remember, like the stevia sodas, that can help you. I know that carbonation helped me with some cravings

I'm so happy that your friend made you aware of those meetings, and gave you the number of a good councilor. It all sounds like a much better fit for you (((HUGS)))

[bizi]

I am going to the NAMI support group tonight at 6pm at the lutheran church close by. (They meet the 1st and 3rd sundays of the month).
Maybe I can meet someone there. A few years ago I met a woman and we became fast friends. She moved to missouri to be closer to her dad. We stay in touch thru face book.

I have very few friends



Most people who have a mental health dX, don't drink alcohol I presume.
I met one woman already, I took care of her dads feet, he died about a year ago. We are friendly. For a short time we Would call each other just to chat but then we stopped. It becomes uncomfortable when she doesn't have a car. I tried to get her to go with me to the gym, she was too tired to do that.



The Atheist AA group meeting is on wednesday at 6pm.

I will go there. Wonder how that will go? They rewrote the big book to remove all religious aspects from what I have heard.


Am going to start going to the gym again, to walk on the tred mill.


Jeff came home last night!!! His plane was late, I parked and waited for him at the gate. On the way home we stopped by popeyes, he was starving. I had already had a whopper with extra everything for dinner. It was very good. My first day of my diet/watching what I eat is today. Jeff came home with lots of stories.
They went hiking up a mountain, he is really sore from that. It was a 3.5 mile hike and it took the over 3 hours to make the trip. They climbed over rocks and steep cliffs. He said he had to be really careful.
His heart rate went crazy because of the high altitude. It was hard for him sleeping in the cabin the first night. The cabin is at 8,000 feet elevation, up the side of a mountain. It is basically a small house 500sq feet, 2 bed rooms one bath. His friend Mike has been fixing it up since they bought it 8 years ago. He will be there all summer. His wife and family joined him yesterday.

I missed him and am glad that he is home.
Bizi

[bizi]

I went to the support group meeting tonight.
Met a couple of ladies that might be interested in having coffee.
I gave each of them my business card with my phone number.
Maybe one will call me.
It would be nice to make a new friend.
bizi

[bizi]

All I have are my addictions.
Alcohol which I am trying to abstain....day 2 down.
Food (gained 50 pounds in 4 years)

starting low carb dieting again,

which works when I don't drink, I lose weight.
Internet....This is the most addicting activity that I do.
It is where I get support and give support.
Even so, I call it mental masterbation.
It is very satisfying. Instant gratification stuff, limbic stuff.


Take these away and I am a ghost.
I don't know how to be comfortable in my own skin...
what does that even mean?

[mymorgy]

so sad. you are overlooking so much. you have a wonderful and kind personality and you are a giver. You help so many people. I am positive you are great in you profession and help so many old people and give them great treatment. Please be kind to yourself.
love
bobby

[bizi]

Thank you bobby.
You are right . I love my job and am good at it.
I hope that it doesn't get taken away by the board...still have not heard from them which is a good thing I think.
love bizi

[mymorgy]

I pray that it will be okay. I wonder if references from some of your patients can help.
love
bobby

[Dmom3005]

I still am not posting as much and haven't been on all weekend.
But I'm sorry I didn't get here to support you.

I am still trying to recover posting with the left hand and arm.
I sure wish I lived closer to you, we would definitely do things and
I'd go to eat with you. And have hot chocolate or coke while
you have coffee. I haven't drank coffee in years for some reason.

I also have few friends, just many aquaintences.

Donna

[bizi]

Thank you bobby,
I had about 8 clients write notes on my behalf.
I appreciate your support.
HI donna, thank you for offering to go with me to have a beverage and talk. I have acquaintances too. 2 friends one is a lunch friend. I have tried to get together with her so many times and we are just lunch friends unfortunately and that is about once a month or so.
My other friend is a social worker in charge of multiple offices around here. Doing child welfare cases. I think...it is a state job. and I am afraid to share with her my struggles.
bizi

[Dmom3005]

I can totally understand that. I have some friends that are Workers with
the state dcs and things too. ITs hard enough for them to get their
cases done.

I'm around if you need me.

Donna