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06-05-2019, 11:32 PM | #151 | |||
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I went to the AA meeting tonight and it was good.
I now have a sponsor. I like her. I will call her tomorrow and set up a meeting. She is old enough to be my mother but that is fine. I asked her if she knew about non dualism and she did. She has a degree in theology. I hope she doesn't try to convert me.....This is an atheist AA group and free thinkers and agnostics. I wonder if she will get me a book to read and if it is different from the "big book"? The 12 steps have been reworded to take out all references to God or a higher power. We have had a lot of rain and more is expected the rest of the week and over the week end. I think I am ready to get better. bizi
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, |
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06-06-2019, 08:25 AM | #153 | ||
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Bizi
I'm glad you are saying you "think" you are ready to get better. That is the right way to be thinking. That way you can then come back later and say I'm ready to get better for sure. It takes a while to get better, it will be ups and downs. Just like the way Dan has had to do his. donna |
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06-06-2019, 08:35 AM | #154 | |||
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Continuing to feel grateful for this forum.
183.8 this am. So it is coming down. Have a great day yall! (((((HUGS))))) bizi
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, |
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06-06-2019, 09:39 AM | #155 | |||
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I'm so glad that the meeting went well, and that you have a sponsor you like! I hope that her degree in theology turns out to be a good thing. If they are truly free-thinkers, then they won't try to push anything on you, but may give you a lot to think about.
Maybe this is the book? https://www.amazon.com/Staying-Sober...gateway&sr=8-1 I'm so glad that you think that you are ready to "get better," and that you worded it that way (((HUGS))) I'm here whenever you need me |
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06-06-2019, 08:09 PM | #156 | |||
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Thanks Kay I ordered the book!
This evening I spoke with Carol. I am meeting her this tuesday at her house at 7:30pm. WE are going to use the big book. She asked me if she could pray for me, silent pause on my part. Then I just said sure if you want to. She said that was the perfect answer. Tolerance is what we strive for, she said. We shall see how it goes. Jeff bought me a book: Under A-rest....Reflections on the twelve steps by Paul Hedderman. I am going to start reading it tonight and this weekend. I think it will help me process the steps. The big book is really religious... so I am not sure this is going to work for me. Any way I will see on tuesday how it goes. bizi
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, |
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06-06-2019, 09:09 PM | #157 | ||
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bizi
I think its okay for her to pray for you. I would hope if I needed prayers I could ask but I know not all would want to. But I'd hope I could ask. And I've really never thought about asking others sometimes I just say thoughts for them Donna |
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06-07-2019, 09:22 AM | #158 | |||
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I have the AA book. I have read it, and found parts of it useful/interesting even though I am not religious. You kind of have to take what you want and leave the rest. I used a hi-lighter and paperclips when I was actively reading it, so you know there really are good parts. The book is somewhere in a huge box in the closet now. I wish I had it close at hand so that we could discuss it.
It was really nice of Jeff to buy you the book about the 12 steps. I'm glad that he's being supportive. I hope that the book helps... I think with all the reading you are going to be doing, you will probably be spending less time on the internet, which is a good thing (((HUGS))) I have had people ask if they could pray for me before. I think that is a nice thing because it means that someone wants to let you know that they are thinking of you, and wants to address their concerns for you in their own way, but they want to respect your boundaries.... so I think as far as the subject of religion goes, you will be fine I'm really looking forward to seeing how things go with your sponsor on Tuesday. She sounds like an interesting woman. I hope that you remember during your one on one meeting that you have a voice of your own, and are always free to use it (((HUGS))) |
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06-07-2019, 08:48 PM | #159 | |||
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Thank you,
My book will be in on wednesday. I read a bit of the book that jeff got me last night. IT seems good so far. The melatonin really works for me happy to say. I am groggy in the mornings after a good 7-8 hours sleep. I am going to stop taking the zyprexa because the melatonin works so well. I am taking per pdoc instructions 2 different ones, a quick and a long acting one. Any one who has trouble sleeping they really work! bizi
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, |
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