I'm so glad that you had such a nice birthday out with Alice!

You are not a failure! I am so sorry that you are feeling that way right now
You did so much for the children in your neighborhood when you were young, and the children you worked with as a therapist. And you are such a good friend to so many people, especially Suri. People who give so much to others are not failures, they are blessings (((HUGS)))

I took Rexulti for a while to break an episode of depression. It worked very quickly for me, but I was on it for a couple of months, and I had zero side effects, including no weight gain, but that's me...

If I remember correctly, you have already tried Rexulti, prescribed by your old pdoc because it worked so well for me, but it did NOT work for you. I don't remember you having any side effects either tho.
So, that is a failed drug trial, so you should not bother taking it, no matter what the side effects are. You can tell your pdoc that you forgot you had already tried the med and it didn't work. But I'm kinda surprised that your old pdoc prescribed it for you given the side effects because he was always so cautious, but he may have realized that the risk of some of the more serious side effects are low, and they are.

In a brief, but not complete summary: Weight gain is common- up to 30% of patients, and 10% actually reported weight loss in clinical trials. It can also cause a host of common GI issues and increase anxiety, which have been big problems for you lately. It can also raise blood sugars and cholesterol, as I think you or someone else has already mentioned, but those side effects tend to be dose-dependent.
There have been an "unknown frequency" of cerebrovascular incidents such as stroke, which means the incidents are likely rare, and possibly not related to the medication. Sometimes patients have medical problems during the course of clinical trials that aren't related to the medications, but still have to be reported.

I definitely don't think it's the best med for you to be taking. But, like I said, I'm pretty f'ing sure you've taken it before anyway, and it didn't work, so there's no reason to take it again. I'm surprised you don't remember taking it before.

your cognitive skills are great kay being that you remember about Bobbies meds.
Thank you for that.
(((((hugs)))))
bizi

I thought it was familiar. Thank you so much. I wound up having a wonderful morning. Stella and I had coffee at 10:30 and then we wound u talking at length to an adorable guy i his thirties outside of the coffee place for over an hour. Stella did most of the talking. I have to look up Atlantis. Then she took me to the Indian buffet which was delicious and we kept on talking.

I am so glad that you have stella in your life!
bizi

Great morning with Stella.

yesterday I sent her an email saying that I was blessed to have her as a friend.
Last night I didn't sleep much at all. I am upset about the meds the doctor prescribed. I won't take either. One of the serious side effects of equetro are bruises. I don't know if it from the blood thinner but I often see black and blues and don't know how I get them.The medicine would make me too anxious and anxiety and depression are my major problems besides the physical problems like walking,diabetes and controlled blood pressure and high cholesterol. I will ask her again for topamax. I was able to handle that drug and it did reduce my cravings for sweets.

I remember that Bobby took the Rexulti because when she did, I was really hoping it would work for her like it did for me, but it didn't, and I was really disappointed

Are you going to call your pdoc, or just keep taking your antidepressant and Klonopin and wait for your next appointment?

Are you on a blood thinner, or just worried about the fact that you get mysterious bruises (I do too), or worried about bruising as a side effect of a medication?

I'm glad you had such a nice morning with Stella!

one of the side effects of equetorSp) is bruising and I bruise so I don't want to take because it will cause more anxiety. i take a blood thinner because of my stroke I will tell her when I see her. It is too scary

I thought your insurance doesn’t cover it?
So if you can’t even get it, the side effects shouldn’t be relevant...

she told me that she has a lot of samples which she could give me. Thank God I haven't taken it. I have two big black and blues on my leg and I didn't bump into anything. Because I am a worrier and tend to think negatively if I had taken it I might have assumed it was from the medication and would have gone to the emergency room. I decided after thinking about it all night and getting two hours of sleep I will tell her the truth and say I didn't take it because I do bruise easily and would be scared stiff. also it is for mania which I don't have, just depression and anxiety which is really high now and interfering with the antidepressant. I am now depressed and anxious and so tired.
also she immediately cut my klonipin to 1 1/2 mg from 2 mg in the morning and 2 mg at night