I went a little. I had a few teaspoons of apple cider vinegar and a tablespoon of olive oil. I am going to have to ask Marci to give me back the ginger tea boxes I gave her. Even though I read something bad about them for one of my conditions they do help the stomach. I took something last night and I am not sure what but for the first time in a long time my stomach felt normal this morning.
I went overboard buying things for Danny. I have to stop that. I also ordered some things for Cecilia's dog Prince. One came and it is a squeaky little rubber pig. After last month's credit card bill I have to really control myself big time. I am still out of control. I refused to add up all the cab fare.It often comes to about thirty dollars round trip.Now I have the additional expense of the psychiatrist and the month charge of 50 dollars for him to write the prescription for klonopin.

Bobby

For now start writing down what you do each day. So you can remember.
That way when you have a good night and the next morning wake up
having a good morning. Then maybe you have figured it out.

But also keep a eye on what you are eating also. Because it might make
a difference too.

right now I'd stay with what you are drinking if you are having good days.
And then later ask for the other drink back or just ask her to get the
box so you can order the same stuff. in case it looks like you are trying
to get it back to drink.

Donna

I gave her about four boxes and I am so nervous about money I don't want to buy them again. I have given her so much already, probably way too much. I can't take the pressure of typing everything down. a couple of days ago I was so happy and hadn't been happy in years. It is my bipolar. I can't figure out why that day I was so happy. I was by myself. My sleeping is atrocious. Today I was up at three and that happens a lot. Again it is my bipolar and my being out of control. No sleeping pills have worked for me. I drink a lot of soup because it is cheap. My stomach has been so upset the past months that most food doesn't appeal to me. I read a great deal. that is my primary activity. At night I watch msnbc if I can stand it. I play with my kitty cats.
writing these things every day would just be a waste and create more anxiety.
I hardly ever wake up feeling good. I wake up usually exhausted. My depression is better but I am still have depression practically all the time.
thanks for trying to help me. I go to ebay every day for momentary happiness when I buy something.
fondly
bobby
now i just got a stomach ache

I also listen to Josh Groban most of the time even when I am reading.

either the tablespoon of olive oil or the few tablespoons of apple vinegar cider still seem to be working! I am praying that it will continue. Yesterday Robert came over and put the uber app on my smartphone. I gave Danny lots of toys and hamburger. Robert got on my case about not walking. Marci was there and he said I could try to walk with Marci. He said everybody is depressed and he doesn't believe in bipolar. He didn't comment on post traumatic stress. My anxiety was going through the roof! When he left I opened some wine. Maybe I should walk down the block and back when Marci is here. I just have no motivation and don't know how to get it.

I am sorry he is ignorant about the validity of bipolar....that must have been a slap in the face.
bizi

Bobby

It honestly is the pits that anyone says they don't believe in bipolar.
But it happens. Do see if you can walk with Marci while she is
there. And maybe that will help.

I wish I had some other ideas too.

Donna

I decided to go for a short walk with Marci but she is not here and was supposed to hear at 9. guess she isn't coming. she didn't even call
bobby

Bobby

Maybe she had an emergency and couldn't call.

I hope she is okay. And so are you.

Donna

she came in the afternoon. I swear she said 9 in the morning