so sweet
love and kisses
barbara

I don't know what to do about my therapist. He might be good for me because he is an optimist but that rubs me the wrong way. He told me about a book about Rabbi Nachman for instance called The Tormented Soul. So far it is all about his suffering he put himself through as a very young boy and onward. He asked me if I were enjoying it. I told him it was very painful because it was so much about his suffering and how I had to read it slowly because it was painful. He said do you like it. Yes it was a very interesting book although it makes me sad to read it. I am glad he recommended it. I was so anxious and angry that I couldn't concentrate on trying the meditation. Then he was very cavalier about my financial situation even though he knows my friend pays my rent. I mentioned how hot I was without the air conditioner but described my apartment. He said to focus on my apartment rather than the lack of air conditioning.. He said like the glass half empty or the glass half full.
I am so confused. I am really angry but I know I need to be more optimistic.
what should I tell him. He sort of told me is goal is to make me happier..
Help
it was comfortable last night and so far this morning.It is about 70 and the weather for the next days looks okay. i took a bad fall this morning but thank God I didn't hurt myself except my hand hurts. i really scared pudge because i fell right near her.
tonite i speak to my friendly volunteer and this afternoon somebody is going to call me because I signed at an organization for lonely and elderly people. I said my name was Bobby. Later I said Bobby Rita because they didn't ask what sex. Wish me luck..

I just spent a hour on the phone with another volunteer. He was so nice. He is thirty and plans to marry in another year. we will speak next week.

Bobby

This is the second time your air has gone out. And it worries me with your age. How many fans do you have? If you don't have at least two make the get you another one. Also if i remember correctly you had problems with your air conditioner after they bought a new one last time. If that happens this time make them come check things out.
It should last more than a couple of years.

Donna

Hi, Bobby! I'm very glad you didn't hurt yourself when you fell. Also I'm glad it was cooler today. It sounds like you & your new therapist are getting to know each other, two people with different styles. Very interesting. It might be fun to hang on to this for a little while longer. As long as he's not hurting you. I'm wishing you a wonderful weekend! Hugs & love to you Bobby!

i had a good fan but because of space i threw it out. i did have trouble with another new ac-i have a large room and it didn't cool off the room. this one was
friedrich and the compressor went.

i just got this email from the agency who got my volunteer today.
How is Bobby doing? Excellent

Call recap: Bobby is an amazing and dynamic person, so glad I got to speak to her!

Bobby rita! love it!
I am glad that you have some one to talk to you weekly. Kind of like pen pals, you know what I mean? having a relationship that you will never meet in person.
happy for you!
love bizi

I also have another young volunteer I speak to on Fridays. Yesterday she gave me a link to show how f@#king christopher columbus was a monster. They should get rid of his holiday.
Love
bobby

Link to Howard Zinn’s A People’s History of the United States:

Columbus, The Indians, and Human Progress

Christopher Columbus = monster = should not be celebrated as hero or discoverer of the United States:

9 reasons Christopher Columbus was a murderer, tyrant, and scoundrel - Vox

Coard: Five facts proving Columbus was one of history's worst monsters | Commentary | phillytrib.com

I am still so f@#king angry.

the good news is that the building management finally deposited by security check.