I went through a real crisis yesterday. I had a stomach ache all day and night and felt so much anger and terror that I would run out of money. I was so angry at Marci. I was terrified that maybe death would hold more suffering than my life. I have suffered so much. Looking forward to more suffering was pure terror. I didn't even take any of my medicines except for Metformin. I finally took the rest at night. I don't even want to think what that was about.
I listened to my phone messages. One was to go out to lunch. Later Cecilia called me and told me to call her. I called her and went over with a few toys.
She said I was so angry and Marci was a nice woman and I should control my anger. She said she just had no manners. Now I decided I will offer her more clothes that I was going to give to the good will.
She said I had to stop spending. She also knew about Emmet till and she is swedish and didn't come to this country til she was around twenty. I was shocked and felt so ignorant. We watched the patriots but I couldn't concentrate. I left after half time.
I still feel like isolating and haven't checked to see if I got any more messages. I need medication.
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bobby

Your doctors appointment can't come soon enough.
((((((HUGS))))))
love bizi

I am going to tell him that you suggest geodon.
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bobby

Bobby

I'm not sure I would tell him anyone suggest geodon. I would tell him
you have some friends that use geodon and it works well for them.
So because you like to read up on things. You have been reading on
how its supposed to work, and you think it might work for you.

Most doctors don't like it when another person is giving their patients ideas of what medicines might work for them.
And honestly when it comes to the clothes and other things you were going to give to good will. If you were to give them to Marci instead, or even part of them. At least in my area of the states Good will charges lots of money for the things that we give them. And then when someone that needs things comes in they don't usually just give it too them.

So its going to be according to how she is going to use those things. So like if she has other family that she were going to be able to share these things you give her with. Then you would be helping more than just her.

Donna

that is interesting. Maybe I should just ask for an antipsychotic that doesn't cause weight gain. I will tell him about my anger, irritability, overspending overeating and trouble sleeping.
I have heard of people who have gotten good buys from good will here. I am upset that I feel Marci is taking advantage of my generosity and I am making it too easy for her. She is taking advantage of my mental illness. I don't know how to cope with that.
fondly
bobby

marci my aid thanked me three times today and found the tea. I will give her a christmas present. I think I should think all the brave firefighters in California rather than thinking just of the fires. they are such heroes. I have to stop focusing on Trump. I have to start getting away from negativity. I am frightened of God. I don't know what is happening,

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I think it is fine to say that you have heard about geodon and wondered what he thought about it.
Do you take metformin?
I have heard it can help with weight loss.
It is a medication for diabetes.
I am sorry you worry.
((((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

yes I take it but it has never caused weight loss for me.
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bobby
how are your nails?

My hang nails/cuticles are healing.
8 fingers are great, left thumb is almost healed and the right thumb is not so good....but at least in such a state that I don't need to wear bandaides.
thanks for asking! love you

sorry about your right thumb but great that the others are healing
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bobby