I can't believe what I just did. I wrote one of my oldest friends who just had knee surgery a few weeks ago. I was calling her to give support. One day I called and she was having p.t. and said she would call me right back afterwards. SHE DIDN'T-I told her I am trying to change so I wished her happy birthday and mentioned the incident and said I thought that was very rude. she should be more thoughtful. I signed it love bobby.
I am trying to get rid of my stored anger. I am beginning to swear at people making nuisance calls. It makes me feel good.

Bobby

That is something you can do without any being sorry for.
The nuisance calls aren't needed.

And I'm sorry Marci wanted to take the shoes and things for
her friends. Hmmmm, that might have been the time to
say something about just needing to find a different outlet
once in a while to get rid of things were the organizations at
least say thank you.

donna:hug::grouphug:

I am sorry but I don't understand. You might have left out some words. They are my things and I should be able to decide what to do with them. She would have just taken her time and have them hanging around my already cluttered apartment. She also told me she won't hand wash things that are supposed to be hand washed nor iron. Ugh. She expects a lot. No more.
fondly
bobby

I am so tired of being angry.
fondly
bobby

just heard from stella and she sent me a notice about a book on unicorns!
I responded by writing are you losing your mind love bobby
It felt good to write it. I might wind up having three friends left. oh well

I either miss understood what you were saying. Or wrote it wrong
your right. I wasn't talking about hanging anything.

I was talking about the shoes she wanted to take to her friends.
I thought she was just going to take them out the door then.

Sorry. Heehee, thats what happens when you sleep little in
the night.
Donna :hug::grouphug:

Dear Bobby,
Am sorry about your anger.
I still think you are unstable.
The geodon could help you.
((((((HUGS))))))
love bizi

the psychiatrist and I talked about geodon but then he wanted me to go on the antipsychotic I am taking now. I think it is working.Robert knew what I meant when I got so angry with Marci. Kathy is annoying. Right after my mother died she called up and started talking about how concerned she was about her friend who just lost his mother. I wound up getting so furious at the b@#tch. She wanted me to feel sorry for him. He wound up having a wife, children and was close to his siblings. I HAD NO ONE and had just lost mine. This time I went out of my way to be supportive when she had knee surgery. She loves to talk about herself and I would listen. Then when she didn't return my call after saying she would call me shortly back I went ballastic! It brought it all back.
It is fine that I am getting out my anger. Stella is a nitwit. I worked with children and I did a clinical internship and I was excellent and the she had the nerve to say she knew more than I did when she did a little babysitting. I don't need unicorns or whatever new age sh@t she is into. God is enough!
love
bobby

I also read up on geodon and a lot of people reported negative experiences. It is about time I am expressing my anger openly!
love
bobby

I think I finally ended my friendship with Stella. I told her she just needs God and because she hasn't developed her intelligence she was so easy to brain wash. She turns to the magical and supernatural with all its promises!
I wound up having a really nice afternoon listening to music, reading and petting the kitty cats.