I am glad that you wound up with a nice afternoon!
love bizi

zeynep called and we are going again to that Korean Restaurant next week. I think I shocked her because she offered to go to finnegan's right near me
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bobby

Bobby

I think you just needed to start asserting yourself and getting the
anger out.

Way to go.

Donna

thank you so much Donna. I really do have a problem asserting myself and thus create situations that really upset me. My father was very frightening especially when he was drunk or just raging so I think I learned at a a very young age to placate. Over the long run I don't think it works. I still have a few long term friends who don't get me angry. They are very kind people.
fondly
bobby

I just sent an apology to stella and wrote that she probably won't accept it. I told her that I have been having trouble with my anger and am on new meds.
I can't stand her believing in super powers and magic. They really trigger me when she tries to have me join her, I do believe she has brain washed herself.
I thought a while ago we agreed that she wouldn't discuss that stuff with me since it got me so angry but not like yesterday. I said exactly what I thought,
I was so relieved when Zeynep called and can easily deal with my mental illness. She even at one point complimented me big time.! She never really did that. I wrote Alice a email with pictures of danny playing with his toys and it was great hearing from her!
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bobby
she accepted my apology

Anger in Judaism - Wikipedia


Our sages tell us that anger is a dangerous feeling. Anger can cause tremendous spiritual harm, as well as emotional, mental and physical harm. It leads to many sins, including the transgressions of hurting people with words, treating people aggressively, using foul language, and many others. Secondary anger is the most dangerous kind of all because, sitting as it does on an open wound, one is likely to lash out with the full force of the emotional pain that unleashes it. Words once spoken cannot be retracted. Who knows how many broken marriages are the result of hearts broken by reactionary verbal abuse?

In order to avoid the expression of reactionary anger, we must train ourselves to keep our mouths firmly shut whenever we feels pangs of hurt. G‑d offers a reward “brighter than the sun” to those who are able to master this skill. That reward will take place in the world to come, but there are also rewards that take place right here, in this world. With our mouths closed, our speaking apparatus cannot become an instrument of the evil inclination. We are saved from spiritual harm. Moreover, our most important relationships are saved from destruction. We are able to soothe ourselves, calm down and analyze the situation more quickly because we have not increased the chemistry of rage. We can begin to see the errors of our own ways, learning, growing and improving as a result. We are also able to think and figure out what steps need to be taken in order to rectify the situation. It’s all good!

In order to become a master of self-control, practice We are able to soothe ourselves keeping your mouth closed in minor, everyday incidents when you want to “answer back,” retort or have the last word. As you get better and better at this skill, you will find yourself ready to handle bigger challenges, until finally you will be able to keep your mouth closed in the very moment you are wounded, no matter how hurt you feel. And then you will fulfill the words of Proverbs: “Who is a strong person? One who has self-control!”

By Sarah Chana Radcliffe

difficult to do.
(((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

Bobby
I don't think there is any problem with you letting your anger out. Hopefully you can start getting more assertive with Stella. Even when you apologized to her. Just remember you need to let it out.

So try a different approach, and if the only thing that works is anger with
Stella, then start letting the anger out. Just make sure she knows its helping you.

I used to write a letter to someone, never send it. And just put it in a drawer or in a file on the computer. Telling them the anger I was feeling sometimes
not even they were the person I was angry at. Just got the anger out for
all things to the one person.

It usually worked.

Donna

I don't know why byron katie gets me so angry. a lot of people follow her and what she tells people to do gets me furious. She also neglects God. Stella is so hooked. Stella also follows people who she believes have supernatural powers and I think they are charlatans. Stella also thinks she is right. I don't know how to deal with her or why it gets me so furious.I just can't accept it. I do love her.
Kathy is a different story. She really gets on my nerves and has been doing so for 65 years. I don't know how to deal with anger and the guilt that follows.
fondly
bobby and bipolar makes it much worse.

i might try the keto diet. I am very friendly with a porter in my building who has come down from 480 to 230. He is aiming to go to 200. I was in the hall talking to him and I saw cecilia and just waved to her and kept on talking. She is also now on my anger list.He recommended super colon cleanse and it has been working. He suggested another one but I forgot the first part