Bobby

I know it wouldn't be the same but maybe you could start a diary online that you could say what you want him to know either say half way in the week. Or even if you need more often once in a while. That way you technically can let it go. Maybe even figure a way to send to him.

no i want it to free floating. material comes up that was i hadn't thought of

i wake up every morning and take a few maalox and then take my antidepressant. That usually kicks in. I haven't watched tv in two days and my anxiety is down. I get the washington Post and read some of the articles. I have to find what is happening about the virus.
Yesterday was really weird. My ac said check the filter. I finally got somebody to come and he said there was no filter. so weird. I asked him to buy one and he did. i don't understand. I am truly terrified of going outside.
I will just try to read another book. I heard from David. He fell down and broke some ribs. He was s caring. We are going to try do talk with the webcam.
my bipolar is so awful. i am having trouble with faith. why did i have to be bipolar?

rhetorical I presume, as we all wish we did not have bipolar.
It is all very scarey for us to get manic then be hospitalized. Iknow that is true for people who get suicidal, have you thoughts of hurting your self or others?That is were you bipolar 2 can not have to worry about getting too manic and getting hallucinations. like me. Paranoia or false beliefs are some example of leaning toward the psychotic side.
Hope you have a good day.
love you
bizi

sounds so very dangerous but it is so hard to endure chronic depression anxiety and irritability. can you deal with stress? I can't and am always catastrophizing. and thinking the worse. being isolated and living alone now is more stressful.
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bobby

when there was a complaint and I got a formal 2 notices from the board It totally freaked me out. I imagined the worst, $40K fines losing my license.
I changed my web site and facebook pages to http.//www.thetravelingfootGO2TOES.com

that is what will go on my license plate "go2toes"
the web site needs lots of help.
having made alternative plans has helped my anxiety immensely. I have not heard back from the board since feb 4 2019, 16 months ago.My lawyer won't get paid by my liability insurance until is completed. so he is not really interested in me. maybe he wants to have a meeting with the board. He has suggested that AND I said I did not what to rush the board. That I was willing to just wait.
bizi

i would have been threw the roof. also i forgot mention that bipolar 11 have the highest suicide rates in mental illness.
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bobby

Take care of yourself, Bobby! If you are feeling that low, please contact someone. I know depression, a piety and irritability can be frustrating, to say the least. Please hang in there! <3

Dear bobby,
are you thinking of hurting yourself?
love you
bizi

when I was so worried about the lease I was and I did tell my therapist. I think he is going to help me. He is going to teach me meditation. I now always have an underlying depression but the antidepressant works. I can't explain it.
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bobby