[mymorgy]

Can you hire somebody like a school kid to do your billing. It sounds as if you are on overload. That is short of funny about shouting. I wonder if she has a hearing aide.
Love
bobby

[bizi]

Originally Posted by mymorgy

Can you hire somebody like a school kid to do your billing. It sounds as if you are on overload. That is short of funny about shouting. I wonder if she has a hearing aide.
Love
bobby

I see Mary at an expensive assisted living retirement home.
Her hearing is excellent in one ear much better than normal for her years and none in the other.
IT is interesting seeing her.
She is 86 years old and has bipolar1 disorder.
I have gotten used to her talking a mile a minute....she is a terrific reader, there are stacks of papers, books etc. they are on her couch but no where else. She really reads and then shares them with other residents. She is not a hoarder. I see her every 6 weeks and have seen her for years.

She has a pdoc that she sees regularly. She broke her lower denture and is having it repaired....is eating in her room and not happy about that. She is pretty social, dresses really nice hair make up etc. Wealthy family in order to live there, although the kids help her out with the rent there.


I guess I shared this in order for us to have hope that we will live to older age even though we have major mental health issues.
much love to all of you
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[mymorgy]

i am so sorry you are going through this.
love
bobby

[bizi]

Thanks bobby!
We split fahitas tonight at el paso and saved some money. drinks were half off too. Me thinking about saving money is a good sign.



I am getting to bed earlier tonight.
Made myself do all of my night routine that I had not been doing.

Shower first thing in the morning. Have to I, am a fright!

I might even look at my nutrition news letter that I have ignored for months 2-3 months behind. and it is only 8 pages!
My picking has been so bad lately, I thought the NAC was helping but not lately. I have a couple artificial tips on my nails and they need attention so I cut them back and filed all of the dry skin/cuticles.
and even gave my hands and nails a sugar scrub treatment that I got free from bath and body works when I bought the parafin cream for my hands from the gift card that was given to me by my brother in law.my hands look so much better with the attention!
good.


heading for bed.
bizi
Got a hold of robin my therapist and see her next week, thank goodness!
Am having major heart burn from the tegretol, side effect, feel like I am going to throw up!
sigh

[bizi]

Excoriation (Skin Picking) Disorder: What Is It?
for you bobby.


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[bizi]

I was still awake at 4;18 last night so got up and took a klonipin and wrote a note to jeff to have brunch with out me. I did get up earlier than I would have liked just because. Got up at 11am this morning, We were able to go to brunch together and I had a BELT sandwich on rye it was delicious!

I will get my CBD tincture, feeling a little illegal about it. Bought it from a friend who bought it from a supplier directly at a discounted price because he is disabled......tomorrow so am looking forward to trying that. I am hoping it acts like my klonipin so I won't have to take that.


Need to do 2 loads of laundry, paperwork, my little desk is covered with it, and take down the christmas trees.
Better get back to work, I can see a bit more table top!
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[bizi]

My friend told me that my order of CBD just came in and I will have it by noon monday! after I get my blood draw for my tegretol level.
I am so hoping it will work like klonipin! Fingers crossed!!!!!!!


I am a bit better tonight.
took down the christmas decorations! finally. Trees are still up though, just undecorated them.

Hubby will put them up in the attic above the car port. His back is bothering him so that may be a few days of sitting in the middle of the room in boxes.
plus 2 loads of laundry...
a tiny bit of paper work for work so it was a productive day.
Took some flowers and a card to a friend who lost her dog, she put him down....he was in kidney failure from diabetes. 13 years old been sickly for years....glad that she has another dog to love too though Mocha.
So I am really getting ready for bed soon...need to eat some peanut butter. Maybe I will get a jar to keep in my bathroom cupboard? Since I am having it nightly now, seems to work great! no more heart burn from the tegretol!!!!
Thanks for reading bobby! love you
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[bizi]

the CBD was ok I think
I slept thru the night and got up after 15 minutes after shutting the alarm off.
Jeff is sick. cold fever he went to lay down around 8pm
he was resting when I got home.


I have been so hot....and sweaty!
my face is wet!
I feel like I have had an on going of nite sweats today. awful
I saw 4 but did not see my last client, rescheduled for the following wednesday.

She sliced her big toe and it is all bandaged up.

I have to get up early tomorrow and have my wind shield replaced from a nasty rock/chip.
they are coming anywhere from 8-10am and the car has to sit for 2 hours I think.
so will resschedule my 10am appointment.
I need to take a shower, tomorrow morning is the day.
My hair looks awful....having it longer I should probably wash it more often....
It is driving me crazy on my neck!
Will try to get to bed earlier tonight....try...geesh!
I baked some salmon and had left over green beans with bacon and almonds
They were delicious!
I need to speak to the manager at sandras.

We bought 3 1/2 pounds of talapia
2 weeks ago. Friday and packaged it up on satuday for

the freezer and it smelled fishy and was tacky!


Jeff bought me a huge butter finger bar! I ate half tonight
it was so good! He knows it is my favorite!
Well I had better sign off.
thanks for reading!
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[bizi]

it is 55 right now and high today of 64...but rainy.
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[bizi]

Dr. Orazio,


I just got off the phone with Robin, my therapist.
She encouraged me to write to you.
Since I am not sure if you are in the office on friday mornings...you may not see this until monday morning.
Am seeing Robin monday afternoon at 2 pm. I think I see you March 3rd.

Two weeks ago, I had made an appointment to see her on wednesday but she canceled and could not see me

today so we texted this evening and she helped me feel better.


This has been a frustrating year for me....Wasn't it over a year ago that we tried the abilify and that didn't help.

Back to lamictal and geodon at max doses.
anyway...I really believe I have been unstable for quite some time.
Even the change to lithium(you had suggested vraylar too) I became hypomanic at christmas time in indiana(on lithium)

I was afraid of the geodon with drawl so instead stayed with the geodon.
But now, I do believe the geodon is not working.
I have not had this amount of hypomania since BEFORE I met you.
Took the increased dose of tegretol after dinner tonight and have already stopped the prevagen in case it was activating.


My Hypomania symptoms:
Having problems with time management.(home and work)

spending too much time with clients doing my job....it is taking me longer. Seems so hard to do now.

don't trust my instincts.
questioning my skills

poor boundary issues
being late for everything
on the computer, up too late, after midnight

over sleeping
driving is an issue, very distractable
last week a bit paranoid looking for cop cars
this week trying to focus to not get into a car accident
impatient with other people

hard focusing on routine, takes twice as long to do my night time routine,

getting home late and eating out a lot!
Skipping personal hygiene steps( brushing teeth, washing face, applying night time creams)

Bounced a check because I avoided making a deposit(I never bounce checks!)


Today, I was so angry with you when you did not want to change my anti-psychotic,
like you did not believe me. I don't want to get manic! or worse psychotic!!



I started using CBD at night to help improve my sleep....2 nights and I think I am sleeping better.


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