[bizi]

Originally Posted by mymorgy

have to look up visteril.. glad you will see robin. take care of yourself as best as possible.
love
bobby

It is a strong antihistamine. I take it at night to sleep.
That might help you?
love bizi
You are very kind.

[bizi]

got to bed at midnight,
Did not sleep well because of the zyprexa and restless legs from it.I know that I did eventually get some sleep just don't know how much.
I got out of bed this morning at 10:30am
Got ready and we went to lunch at this place we like called dwights.
I got pork steak and dirty rive and potato salad was good took some home because I was full.
Hubby is having health issues for the past 2 weeks.
He got a crown a while ago and it has been painful ever since. also keeping his mouth wide open for 2 hours effected his TMJ.
Hoping he goes to see the dentist...some sort of condition, he has been massaging the jaw so it is some better so that is good.
He wasn't going to eat at lunch but forced him self to eat.

Said he feels better.
He does not have a fever so that is good.
Said he was going to lie down.

I leave to see Robin(my therapist) in Half an hour.
When we went to our friends for dinner last night, it was very good!
fish and chicken with a hot chilipepper sauce,

I am really going to cut back my drinking tomorrow, mardi gras. and abstain alcohol for lent. I reported the restless legs to the nurse at dr. orazio my pdoc...due to the zyprexa. She called dr. riggs and gave him an update.
he had said to decrease it to 1/2 pill. I said perhaps just take the 5mg in the morning then 5 mg at night....she called back to say that I could do that.
I was going to take some seroquel that I have on hand and told her that she said don't do that.

Jeff has no influence on me(he was to be my brains as robin put it). I drank a lot yesterday and was on the computer a lot yesterday.
Will try to reel it in.
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[bizi]

I am to limit my computer usage.....
until I can get back to sanity.
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[bizi]

Went to planet fitness and walked 1.25 miles for 30 minutes before calling it quits.

I had not been to the gym in 245 days, 8 months!

They can easily tell you that!


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[bizi]

Happy Mardi Gras!


I am on the fence as to whether to go or not.
I don't think I need to exposing myself to all of that.
It would be the last hurrah before lent tomorrow.
I had One dog fish head 90 minute IPA to drink

which is like 2 beers and that was all.


I met with Robin yesterday.....
She said I do not present manic. But after talking to me,
yes she believed that I was manic.
So I guess I just have to wait for the meds to work.
I got very little accomplished yesterday.

One load of laundry.
I posted on the forums different ones that I was not posting anymore,
Trying to regain sanity.
Robin asked me what I was going to do.
I said go to the planet fitness and walk on the treadmill.
So that is what I did.
It had been 245 days since I was there 8 months!
I walked for half an hour, 1.25 miles...that was all that I could do.


I took 5mg of zyprexa with lunch yesterday and 10 mg of it at bedtime.
Not because I meant to take 10mg I forgot that I was supposed to take only 5mg.
I am going to look up manic dosing.
This is not a good time to be manic with marysue probably needing surgery.
Jeff said he would call brian, his brother and see how she is doing. I told him he needed to call the nurse.
everything is shut down here because of Mardi gras, and it is just regular work day every where else.
We don't have any food in the house except for some ham and cheese to make a sandwich.
I need to take a shower.

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

I hope you start to get better soon. I know this is an really long road. I'm sorry I've been missing. I've been busy

[bizi]

Thank you Donna. How are you feeling?


Unfortunately, I am manic and Jeff doesn't think so.
I was able to take a shower, get dressed,do face and hair, I look presentable.
10;30-I took an extra 5mg zyprexa this morning, along with 50mg of visteral.
I threw in the bath rug in the washer, because it had so much hair spray it was sticking to my shoes and almost tripped. It is out of the dryer now. Fresh and fluffy now to clean the rest of the hair spray off the floor.
12;30-
I ate a wonderful ham and cheese sandwich on daves killer bread. It was tasty.
took my noon meds. including 80mg of geodon and 400mg of tegretol. and supplements.
I have texted Robin my therapist today she is very supportive.

Jeffs mom is having surgery tomorrow so he is flying to INDY leaving in the morning.
We are going to board the cat because I can't do dressing changes by my self.
I called Carol My old AA sponsor. We have become friends since I am not doing AA.
And spoke with her, she is willing to be a support person for me. She said that she would come over for dinner at 5pm every night. I am so glad that she is willing to do this for me. She said that I would have that to focus on during the day since I won't be working.
I am in the middle of canceling 13 clients appointments , have to call and reschedule them
and will be off work for the next 7 days. until I see my psychiatrist on next tuesday at 10;20am..March 3rd.
I have billing to do, charting and filing to do. I think I will change my out going message
on my voice mail saying that I will be out of the office until March 4th.
That gives me a week to stabilize.
So, Jeff will be gone from wednesday to sunday. Hattie the Cat with dressing changes is going to vets tonight at 6pm. He just left to meet a friend to go do"Mardi Gras"parades and such.
He put UBER back on his phone, probably because I may not be able to drive him to the airport in the morning. we will see how I am.
I threw away the last 2 truly beers in the fridge and
I will start my abstaining from alcohol today.
This past week I was only drinking 3 beers a night last night I had 1 strong beer.
I was told to limit my computer usage but have not been able to do so.
thank you for reading.
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[Mari]

Hi, Bizi,



My brain is not working well so I do not understand most of that.
I'm sorry.


I do hope that you feel better.



M

[bizi]

Hi Mari,
I am sorry your brain is not well....
thank you for posting and stopping by!


I am going to bed sooner tonight. jeff will be gone when I get up.
I am having a hard time typing.
thank goodness for spell check.
jeff leaves at 7;45am, his good friend paul is taking him to the air port for a 9:30 am flight.
tomorrow:
I have to pick up paper work, orders for tegretol level. and have blood work drawn tomorrow.
And come up with dinner for Carol, my friend from AA
who is coming at 5;30pm.
Her idea, She suggested it. I have all day to come up with dinner.

She is very wise. I think that her son has bipolar also.
So she has experience with it.
I did some filing and made phone calls canceled appointments for tomorrow at least and will make more tomorrow.


It is 9:40 and I am hungry!
Am signing off.
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Talked with hubby tonight. He got in ok to INDY.
Will go see his mom in the hospital....she did well after surgery.
It took 2 people to stand her up so that is not good.
She will have to go to a rehab place once discharged, she will not like that at all.
I have been giving up alcohol for lent for some time now. Same this year.

See how it goes 42 days...think it will be harder this time because I am manic....
This has been a long day. I keep having to remind myself it is wednesday.

I have labs drawn tomorrow morning,
Best buy to take back the phone charger doesn't work.
lunch at sandras, maybe mousaka?
A/C menards come between 2:30 and 4pm for winter inspection.
There is an AA meditation meeting at 5:30
Not sure if I want to go to that. I invited carol over for a ham dinner.
that would be at 6;45.
It is now 9;45pm and I should think about going to bed soon.
Thanks for putting up with my ramblings.....




met a woman there and gave her my number, her name is Nicole.

She is a nurse and was 18 months sober and decided to inject

benadryl and got a blood clot in her arm with damage to the surrounding tissue,
she may lose 3 finger tips. That was 7 weeks ago.


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