over the weekend we started rewatching the x-files.
great film making. we own 9 seasons but there are 10,
so we missed out on season 10 and then they brought

back for another series 11, which did not go over that well.
I believe in UFO"S too.

I also believe in ghosts/spirits/angels etc.
we have had 2 experiences with ghosts 5 years apart,

this is the fifth year so we are kind of looking to

have one some time this year.
bizi

Cool! So, the artist is Tom Delonge. His "new"/current band (with the inspiring lyrics) is Angels and Airwaves, but he became popular (or notorious, as he was quite the little, how do you say it nicely...i can't think of it, so yeah, bit of a potty mouth, but to me, hilarious. :P ) with his former band, Blink 182.

Thanks for the tips, Bizi! I had to mute someone today only because of the amount of posts they make every day, not to mention, i see their posts before I even see the celebs themselves post! I probably clocked in about 1 hour on Twitter today. That's insane! I will probably have to mute others with my other fandoms...yeah, it's so hard! But I keep trying! It just sucks as it takes out time I could spend other places, but more so that it's more difficult to like pause on Twitter, which is basically one long thread (the timeline), as opposed to several shorter threads on a forum. Discord is also frustrating in this way...but I can let that one go by easier than Twitter.

Anyway...so yeah. Obsessed and he's just so damn cute! I watch old videos-the ones when I knew him best, he acted even younger than he was and his voice was so "young" too, then there are the ones even earlier, lol, where he's still a teenager, but he is like a baby in there (ha! Not literally, of course, just by comparison) The irony is that he will always be older than me, but he truly did act and look my age back then. And now, well, hes looking a bit more his age, maturing but still with a great sense of humor...and yet, he's still just so gorgeous, IMO. So like, I mean, it's impossible to forget how much of a crush I used to have as I still kind of do! Lol But the fantasy will still always be him from like 2000-2006ish. Lol Alright, i should stop talking now. :P

Oh boy! So a whirlwind of things have been going on, but the gist of it relates to Tom/Blink 182.

So, I was seriously getting into a bad place with my crush/obsession. Luckily, I came to my senses. I'm now only "crushing" in a healthy way, if that makes sense. Like, just aesthetic appeciation-a lot. But I'm not heartbroken over it anymore.

Yea, so I've just been getting acquainted with some of the Blink fandom lately, and reminiscing of good times from the late 90s/early 2000s. I'm still obsessed and enthused, but not crushed...or not too much. ;)

I don't know if I shared this, but I even finished my editing last month! Not a final draft, by any means, but a good stopping point for a bit of a break. So yeah. I can breathe a bit now. :D But my obsession is taking a lot of time. Ha! Think it's beginning to settle somewhat though. I still need to check my priorities, but ... well, I need to prioritize my eye sight too and general health. So, I still am not able to really keep up here, but I'll at least try to check in when I can. Love and hugs to you all! <3

Thank you for the update, GeeLuv! :) Love to you, too! :circlelove:

Addictions are hard to break...I know from first hand experience!
gotta keep trying!
bizi
there has to be a balance in your life....
IMHO

Bizi

Is so right, It takes time to get over addictions.

Donna

Why am I wide awake after only like 4 hours of sleep?! :/

are you feeling stressed or anxious?
could be hypomania....
tell me more.
bizi

Oh boy! So weird! Well, I mean, I actually went back to sleep that day,...

But today. I mean, I don't even want to figure out the hours and drag myself down, but I slept at 3am, woke at like Idek 5a? Then slept again from 6:30 to like 8:30am and I'm up now, wide awake! Ready to start the day. Woo hoo!

I don't know what else. Oh, just overly enthusiastic about this band/musicians stuff. Also, I heard from my "lil" bro last night and that just increased my excitement (he just ...just one of my favorite persons. We always have a blast!)

TMI??? v (but it's my honest thoughts and feelings right now)

But I don't know if this is any kind of hypomania or just summer or what. I mean, everyone (it seems) keep convincing me that I don't experience hypomania, because I'm not reckless with money or do drugs or ...well, actually the "passion" stuff was on fire last night, if I'm being completely frank. I mean, it was me. Doesn't help that I'm getting all pumped up by this celebrity crush thing, but is it only that??? I mean... I mean, is it? This did happen one other time, with a different crush... I kinda feel bad that I'm having these crushes in my married life, but at the same time, I don't feel guilty at all anymore. I feel guilty that I don't feel guilty. I feel I kinda need this external stimuli, to be completely honest... gah! I swore to myself I wasn't going to share that, but it is what it is. I need to paint this picture in full, especially since this is maybe one of the first times I've felt this way since knowing you folks (??) I mean, like really in the thick of it. I've had euphoria while on PC, but never this intensity. The difference is, this intensity is like only mental right now. Yesterday, it was physical agitation too... the "passion" kinda relieved that. Wow! Was that ever amazing! (Sorry if tmi)

P.s. folks, I do try to read your journals when I can. I have lately. But I can't "thank" them always or now, because I gotta hop off. Love and hugs to you all!

*group hug