[Dmom3005]

Good questions, Bizi will be back tonight. She should hopefully
be able to help answer part of these. I have no idea on most.

But you sound like your concentration is better on the medicine.
Which is honestly good. And until this medicine gets to a really
good level for you, honestly you don't want to add another medicine.

So I would wait on the ADHD medicine for then. And I can't tell you about
testing, because I honestly don't know how they evaluate an adult. I do
know how they evaluate kids in school. But not when you don't have
others to help figure it out. And to me you don't.

So just waiting a while to get that figured out should be okay, but make sure you are taking your medicine on time. Try to work on getting the computer turned on at midnight, and to bed at 1am.

Donna

[bizi]

HI gee, glad to hear that you are now taking/giving the vyrlar a chance to see if it is going to help with the cycling that you are having.
I need to get ready for bed.
sorry this is so short.
need to sleep.
bizi

[GeeLuv]

So I'm never quite prepared to post, but I'll try to keep this short and sweet.

Bumped the Vraylar last week. Had my period, so I'm thinking that didn't help but was feeling some drowsiness for a few days. Today seems better though. Period is better too.

I think the meds are working cuz i went to bed angry and woke up completely forgetting about it and being all nice and everything, so that helped the day. Not saying things are perfect or imnot mad when i think about the thing, but at least I know I can move on from the feelings. Idk maybe i just felt better overall, but if the meds are helping that, then woo hoo! (Not manic great, just feeling good.)

Ok, well i have a followup at the end of the month. I still need to do testing for an official adhd dx. I have to set that up if i want to follow thru. I was concerned again yesterday, cuz i was feeling foggy and slow in addition to drowsy (or maybe its all the same). Had coffee today and feel better tho (i had been skipping coffee or having green tea instead for a few days cuz technically I'm recommended by my GP to do so for my physical issues.) Hoping i can strike a balance though.

Ok, i cant think of anything else at the moment, so i won't talk y'all s ears off more. Thanks!

[GeeLuv]

Ps. Still have those questions, Bizi
Thanks

[GeeLuv]

definitely going into a depressed episode, or in it, rather
yeah, not much to say, I just feel unloved, rejected, ignored...the whole list of sad/hurt/angry feelings. :'(

stabilizer doesn't seem to be stabilizing right now. and I'm supposed to be able to go off the antidepressant on Vraylar? um, like hell I am at this mood.

[bizi]

Don't go off your antidepressant.
tell your therapist.
bizi

[GeeLuv]

hello ladies!
been trying to read a bit over the last few days.
trying to work it in. we'll see.

i've been in therapy and psychiatry since the last time I was here but
i'm kinda getting off therapy for the time being because it was no longer helping
and i'm just so busy.

I need help though. my therapist kept saying in addition to the bipolar she still thinks
it's ADHD. And she kept saying things aren't my fault like as if my brain just works a certain way
i wish she could help me tap into the good things about me

sadly, my husband (H) is of no support when it comes to mental health.
that is why i'm not making much progress. It's never going to be good enough for him...
except he's been quiet lately, which could mean things are ok. idk. maybe not. maybe he's holding it in.
maybe i need to ask him again.
i'm so tired!

i'm so tired, it takes so much out of me every day just to think
think of what to do and what needs to be done and then mustering the will to get it done.

anywhoo, that's me and why it's so hard to get here. too mental and I want to be a part of everything and anything that helps me
i hide away in twitter pics, gifs, and in the music
i do pray too, but admit i could do more. hard to focus though. i get restless. sighhh

[mymorgy]

i am so glad you are praying and listening to music. I think you need another husband or just control yourself and look at his positives.
Can you afford a housekeeper and maybe start going to a gym. That would be so neat. WE really care. We know how rough it is to be bipolar especially when meds don't work. I really love listening to the psalms. I don't know if you do. I have a negative view of spending too much time on the internet. I think it can mess up your brain.
Geodon has really helped my depression and anxiety. Have you ever thought of doing volunteer work. It would be so rewarding.
bobby

[Dmom3005]

Gee

I think you need to figure out how to do some exercises or get a membership
at a place.

Just do what you can with the husband helping out. Don't worry about
whether he is supporting bi-polar have him support you in what you
need. Work on just one think.

Donna

[GeeLuv]

thank you for engaging me folks. I am reading and taking your posts to heart.

I am going to just start by saying the things I am doing though until I get into a habit of being here more often.
I have been trying to be more cognizant of my prayers. trying to remember that God guides me to what is right and helps us through our trials, so I mustn't forget Him.

I also started, due to the advice here, to work fitness back into my routine. I've gotten so out of practice, just my walk today was tiring. Actually, I'm pretty tired a lot...but I think it will help in the long run. I've gotta keep trying.

Going to keep this short. Taking baby steps.