[bizi]

I finally read what you wrote

and do you feel better for writing it?
Remember I have a terrible memory so am not really able to comment.
just know that I care about you.
and am wishing you good health both physically and mentally.
bizi

[GeeLuv]

I do feel better. I was attempting to write in a different way and while it wasn't perfect, it was better and gives me more practice. It's also a good record of the day. Maybe I could do this for my personal journal, and then pick out the highlights to share here though. Hmm. Just considering ideas.

Goodnight!

[mymorgy]

that is a great idea!

fondly
bobby

[mymorgy]

mymorgy- not sure what regency romance novels are

they take place in England mostly in the 1800's and describe dresses, the homes, and use expressions that were used then.They are such a great escape and well written. Right now I am reading books by Elizabeth Mansfield. She is so wonderful!
Fondly
Bobby

[GeeLuv]

Had quite a busy day and I'm tired now, so I'll keep this short. Today is day 2 of 3 with cleaning the oven/stove. It's the first time I've ever cleaned an over and I'm proud of myself for finally learning and actually doing it. It's taken a little bit longer because there are some deep set in stains that need overnight soaking and I could only do one side of the stovetop plates at a time because I needed the stove for cleaning. So now the whole oven is sprayed and soaking and one side of the stovetop is all ready to go. Oh yes, and I also put foil over the plates, you know to avoid excess filth getting on them. Guess it helps, but those plates can still get pretty dirty! I had been doing pretty good with keeping those cleaned and the foil changed out regularly, but there were some deep set in stains that have now only come out with the oven cleaner. Call me a dork or whatever, but I'm excited to have clean things!

Oh @bizi did you have something you wanted to say about the post before my last post?? You said you'd come back to comment about it. It was about what I used to do before forums and my new life of going from contentment to having ups and downs but the ups making it all seem worth it. Do you still want to comment or should I just move on? Thanks!

[Mari]

Originally Posted by GeeLuv

Awe! That's a bummer!

I'm feeling like doing what you did Bizi, in the sense that I give up posting on my journal threads on PC. I'm not sure though. I mean maybe somebody out there is still reading. But my head and heart hurt right now as those threads don't get much attention now...like this does. (Thank you folks) Maybe it's just how I'm feeling because of how I woke up today.

Feeling mopey right now. Think it's because of the exciting dream I had about when my life had hope and a promise...ok, I mean I have that in a different way now, but back then I just felt creative and alive. Now my creativity seems to only happen in my dreams. :/

P.s. I'm also kinda disappointed at how I just can't find the desire or even reason for getting up in the morning and doing anything but get right online. Especially on a day like today, I really need that energy boost I get from my online friends and supporters. I've been taking my meds that require an empty stomach, and now I must get up and eat. I woke up an hour earlier than planned for today, so once again, I am tired...but I'm really trying to do all the right things...like I said though, it does get very hard when I can't find the desire or the reason for all of this. :/ But it's there, somewhere, I guess.

Keep trying. Trying counts

Staying on the plan is a win.


M

[bizi]

hi G, I have exceeded my time allowed for the internet.
Please don't count on me for responses ok. if I have thanked your post then I have read it. ok?
I am overwhelmed at the moment see my thread, you don't have to comment at all. just don't forget to thank me so I know that you read it...ok?
take care bizi

[GeeLuv]

So, busy day for me today! Just as I was thinking I could get a break I'm reminded of taxes. (I dread doing taxes!) We have an appointment for 11am this morning, so I'm up and going slightly earlier (good thing I've been practicing waking up earlier though because this wasn't bad)
Anyway, stressing about when I'm gonna have time to prep food and then cook it. I'm gonna insist we get food outside for lunch...hopefully that will be safe...because it takes at least an hour to prepare and marinate and I really want to get back to the oven cleaning A.S.A.P.!
Taxes usually take a few hours for us and the stress comes with the fact that for some reason, we always end up needing to go back home for some other document here or there. I just don't ever know what to expect! Anyway, hoping all will go smoothly, but I likely won't be much available today until i dunno when. *takes a deep breath*
Hehe but not to get everyone all stressed even more, including myself...hmm trying to think a happy thought here...uhhh...i really don't know. My mind is racing kinda but nothing necessarily generically happy. I've got a song in my head from my favorite album and the weather is nice-ish, maybe. Hehe

Edit: Ohhh! Forgot to mention how awful the third movie in the series we've been watching was. I mean, it is laughably horrible! A kid could have been doing the filming, the acting was just getting by (different cast from the other 2), and the plot twist was just a joke to the franchise! Hehe Never again! But all I can do is laugh. ^^

[bizi]

It is good to laugh G!!!!!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[GeeLuv]

Omg! I'm so stressed I forgot I already checked Twitter today and logged in again! :P

But we got taxes done.

Now I'm having lunch and then debating what exactly to cook. I could do the long meal, or I could do the easy one. Long one might yield more meals, but I still have other stuff do do and I'm tired and tense. I dunno. Might actually be worth it if I take the easy route this time, for my mental health sake. Speaking of, I think I'm going to take a break from another forum, except for one or two threads. Unless I get bored, of course, but I'll try to stick to game threads in that case.

Well, lunch is almost done so ttyl!