[Waking Light]

Dear GeeLuv, That was a really good report about your therapy. And it all looks like this might work out. I feel hopeful about it. Also thank you for sharing about those kitties you love. Very enjoyable to hear about them. Adorable internet photos, too. I hope you have a wonderful day, dear friend! Hugs & love to you!

[Dmom3005]

Gee

This all sounds good. I think.You are doing good expressing things.

Keep it up

[GeeLuv]

Thanks!

Ugh! But I'm so bored right now! I mean, it's silly. I should be sleeping, it's after 1:30am for heaven's sake! But I just am too addicted to the internet. Either this or Netflix, but that's down the street. *big yawn* lol Well, guess I just needed to vent. I hate feeling this way. Too bored to want to sleep. I really don't know what I'm looking for really. I think things are just changing around me and I miss the routine. I dunno. I'm not making sense. Just so frustrated with being bored and tired ...and overweight! Bleh!

[bizi]

may be you could do some lower calorie meals planning some shopping or trying new recipes could take up some of your time. switching up you meals can be fun. And would give you something to do daily if you feel like it.
good luck today, read, good to the library.find a new hobby.
wishing you best mental health that you can muster up today.
Be brave today, try something new.
fondly bizi

[GeeLuv]

Thanks Bizi! Good ideas, but unfortunately, not a good time for it. Grocery stores are even closed right now and libraries have been closed for awhile. (Covid and now protests). It's hard getting food at all, let alone healthy options.

But basically, I'm just bored of the domestic lifestyle. I mean, not altogether or for permanent. I just mean, I've been cooking nearly every day now for over 2 months and I just really want to eat outside food and take a break! So yeah. Just discontented and frustrated with all the ***** that is 2020. But I'll be alright. Just need to whine once in awhile. :P

A little concerned about getting an appointment with T for this week. I messaged and even tried calling back on Saturday (guess they were open for a bit because they called me in the morning), but they must have left early. It's frustrating, I can't even find office hours on their website! But so yeah, hopefully I can sort it out tomorrow. The other issue though is that I'm again not sure where I'll actually do the session. Last week I was at my folks' since they are out of town, but they might be back by next session. :/ And it's been hot outside lately. Ohhh the irony as this being the appointment where we discuss how to broach the subject of me needing therapy to my husband when I can't find a place to have that chat. Did that make sense? Makes sense in my head, but not sure I said it right. Lol

Good day all!

[bizi]

what about faking needing to take a bath???escaping to a private bath room or basement if you have one.
Could you go to a coffee shop and phone out side?
I don't know our restaurants are open to 50% occupancy.Go out to eat my friend!
bizi

[GeeLuv]

Thanks! But again, it won't work. I'd still be heard. And I don't think there's anywhere I can go right now. :/ But that's not even the most pressing issue atm.

Well, issues surrounding the when and how I'm going to make this last appointment (of the 3 free) have come up. The first available between us isn't until June 18th. I did message her to see if I can get something sooner, like Wednesday or even tomorrow...it's going to be tricky trying to communicate with her right now though. sigh! so...just a little stressed about it all!



Oh! And apparently, I've come to the end of my Clonazepam (for anxiety). I mean, I have the "as needed" backup, but the intent was to get off of it...I'm a little nervous about getting withdrawal symptoms though, or just being extra anxious with everything going on. Sigh!

[GeeLuv]

So I still haven't heard from T. I'm guessing nothing is going to happen this week...maybe just squeak one in tomorrow, but it'll have to be in the afternoon and I'm not sure if we'll communicate about this soon enough. I dunno! But I'm gonna go make my probably last visit to the kitties and watch some Netflix after I have lunch.

I've also kindof had a bit of a "stomachache" today. It was totally worth it though, because that pizza last night was so very satisfying! I'm really hoping the meal I just cooked will be good. I did a bit different spicing this time...but i'm mostly worried about the meat itself. ahhh, i dunno! It's probably fine, but it just sucks so much worse if it's not because we can't really go anywhere or make anything very quickly as a backup...i mean, there IS the backup, but still would not like that and would also like to keep it for real emergencies. Gah! I am so tired of this mess of a world right now! Really hoping it gets better and soon! I think it is, but can't stop hoping and begging!

*hugs everyone*

[Waking Light]

Maybe things will work out anyway, GeeLuv. Don't give up hope. Even if it doesn't work out right now, a new way may turn up right around the corner. I'm still crossing my fingers for you! Hugs & love to you!!

[GeeLuv]

Ok, change of topic for a moment.


Ok folks, you heard it here first! I literally just swallowed my increased dose of Zoloft. Let's see how this helps my anxiety and OCD repetitive behaviors. 🤔