Ok, I think this might be the beginning of a hypomanic episode. Slept 2 hours maybe and have been up since. This sucks! And couldn't come at a worse time when no doctors or pdoc are seeing anyone right now. Any advice would be welcome. Thanks!

I Accept that I am bipolar, having ups and downs.

But, We are having normal reactions to this crisis like most other people!

But it is extra hard on us!!!!!!! and more of a challenge.

ups, downs, with each others support we will get by and you will too.
Thank you for trusting me/us!!!!.







Firstly, I want to let you know that I slept well last night with out the klonipin!
I am so glad!!!!!, just my normal night meds. Yesterday, I left a snippy message about not getting iton my pdocs answering machine. today called in to apoligize for that and actually got charmaine on the phone when I called today!!!!!!!!


I laughed and cried with charmaine from dr. orazios office.
I am so blessed with her and her staffed. and told them so.
A side effect from the tegretol, I am having some urinary incontinence....up 3 times to pee. No changes in meds at this time.

there is medication for that but I don't remember what that is, she told me to call if it gets worse. She would be in the office all week.

WOW!!!!, such reassurance!!!!!!



I have interacted with my family and friends this morning and told them I loved them and am bipolar, ups and downs(because I sound "crazy") to reassure them.

I think They understood this.!!!!
Same with Jeff
("I love you and need you")

same with you guys. This forum.
I am so blessed!!!!!
I am going to take a shower.....
and we all know how I feel about that!:eek:

Just to reiterate....
I am just bipolar and I really am OK!


I will be on here off and on thru out the day but not all the time as jeff needs this for teaching from home his students and we are sharing this computer.


love you
bizi

Bizi

I think you doing what you are and can will be great. I personally also.think just calling in when you need to might help you too. Because your doctors are supposed to be able to communicate on the computer or phone.

Also Bizi, keep a good record now of your not wanting or needing to drink. This is something I am seeing as a very big positive for you.

Your proc will need to know it's definitely coming.

sorry I have been missing.
will catch up tomorrow.
I think I will get a notice when amazon gets more toilet paper in stock.
love you guys
bizi

Love you too Bizi! *hugs

Just a quick check in if you see this first. I slept better last night, but still woke up several times with racing thoughts I had to take time to settle before falling back asleep. What I forgot to mention in my thread is that I slept in though. (Slept about 2am to 12:20pm) so decent sleep, but I'm a little off schedule. So time to get going! :)

Sorry for being absent.:(
But I was having a crisis.
my meds got messed up and some how I must of taken double meds along the way. Talked to dr. Orazio and confessed that I took 5mg of klonipin, she about hit the roof. She was so angry with me. and told jeff I could have died.

threatened to leave me. Talked to jeff who is to now monitor my meds.
I feel ok this morning. slept 12-8 only getting up at 5 to go pee. so that is good . I feel well rested.


Am going to try to get my routine back to normal. lunch at 1130 then take meds, dinner at 6 then meds. night time meds at 1130pm bed at midnight.
no coffee, just herbal tea.
am going to do some cleaning today. bought a mop yesterday.
Jeff is going to bring in his big computer from school though he is not supposed to be on campus.
I will try to sneak on here when I can.
bizi

I hope you are doing alright today! try to get in a routine....at least that is helping me.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

i don't get it. It is so hard to overdose on klonopin.
love
bobby

I was manic/psychotic and needed to sleep so that is why I took 5mg.
I guess it doesn't mix with the hydroxyzine?
love bizi

Keep yourself safe. :)